Broken Mother

I love you

I'm tired of your happiness you show us everyday
It truly fails to capture all the pain and sick dismay
Why the lying smiles mommy? We know they're just for play
Even daddy knows how to keep his sorrows on display

It's not my fault you had me so embrace your young mistake
I know I tear your world apart with every breath I take
Just admit to it you b***h, all your loving words are fake
Since my hurtful birth you've harbored hatred in your wake

Above my crib you'd whisper all your wishes of my death
Drunk breath, cackling until your lungs had nothing left
You tried to buy my laughs as if your money could impress
Don't wanna hear you're sorry w***e, I want you to confess

How you tried to break my neck, bragging to your friends
Beating me to sleep, I know the pain will never end
For the fools who say that this is now and that was only then
Will never understand how I've been robbed of my revenge

I could've drowned you in the tub and watched 
Blown your skull away with shots
Dragged you in the parking lot
Left you in the streets to rot

But now I'm at your wake with the rest of hated family
And they seem unawares to all the ways you damaged me
You died not by my hands, but by a selfish tragedy
So now I'm left alone, but on one thing we can agree

I'm great at this mommy game 
Better than you ever were
And she will never know your name 
'Cause I refuse to tell her

My daughter lives without the pain
You left me in your letters
You broke me once, now I'm insane
But she remains my tether

Author's Note

Written for someone else