Left Myself Behind

poem about self denial

An apology,

Did I get the message

to let go and turn

to me no longer there

 is the reference

a liar

I was miserable

The only thing I'd know

didn't take the opportunities

that come

The first time they'd come

 focus on it

like waiting for the horizon to come back.

fare with what I lose

the gestures now

not what they use to

The chance for change

If I made

The day will be

Great.

something to wait

wasn't a waste

the hope I so mourned won't be

  reasons to hate 

won't go back

to wasting my time like once did

there won't be any reason to

think that for me the same fate

awaits like it once might have.

Victory

Saw what is good and

spent what was plenty

a debt in my heart

forever its seems I hold

The weight of what pains me

Mistakes left these marks.

Now I can see why no one's beside

Made a choice

Didn't need to say what its worth

My word

Lost confidence

This is my reward.

Scathed all that was deep

to surface it doesn't come free

The face of the neglect and the sadness

  Hiding in me.