Self Loathing 101

Just cut the chord

Let me go

 

Who the f**k was I!!!

Better yet..

Who the f**k am I..

 

“You wanna talk about this?”

Talk about what?..

Yet another one of my many black holes?..

Nah..

I don’t want to bother the former Heroine.

Don’t see why that would be necessary.

 

I don’t want to bother anyone..

Yet I end up skullfucking the s**t out of everyone..

Killing what little trust people have..

Let me quote some old s**t here..

“None should be trusted and none should be cared for”

 

That’s right..

If you know that line then you probably

Know that I’m A Fallen Hero

Or I used to be

 

See I was declared sick.

My mind was a tad scattered.

A hard reality really

I had that feeling of being someone else

Unless I was writing

 

Then I was free to speak my mind

And that cost me place at writers’ school

I think E. H. might’ve been proud of me

And I threw it away

 

But now I’m disease free

Not even a depression

That’s what my shrink says

 

And now I feel like f*****g no one

And it’s fair I guess

 

“And so it was told: Thou shan’t be anything but a man standing alone”

 

And with this last line

You can put me down

Bash my skull in with a shovel

Blow my brains out

Just please kill me

I do not have the desire to live any longer

Reviews

[Nightstorm120]

Finally the freedom to simply be who we are. You are bold and brave.

[A Risen Heroine.]

You do not bother me, I offered you someone to talk to, don't take it for granted.
I'm here if you need to talk.

[Tattered Teddy]

Hey you! Get out of my head! What are you doing in there???
Great piece, mate. As ever, I can totally relate.

[Serenity Faith]

Intense, beyond intense really. Though it makes me sad. You don't need depression to create great works, sure it makes for a powerful write, but I've read many pieces, about happier things that were just as powerful if not better. You just gotta find another muse. Decide who you want to be and push aside what anybody else thinks or does. You will never make the world happy. Aim for just a handful of people. Besides, your talent for writing is still apparant....at least, that's what i'd say to the character of this story...

[MWoebbe]

A poem written by feeling so strong i could feel it when i was reading.

Thanks for posting!
Best regards, MWoebbe