I don't feel good tonight

I don't feel good tonight

A Poem by Ursula Kay Vos
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describing the "relief?" of surviving...

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I don’t feel good tonight

 

I don’t feel good tonight

I just don’t feel like me

 

I want to read a poem

My eyes wont let me see

 

My heart wont stop pounding

My mind wont let me breathe

 

Recalling the grasp I escaped

With little more than a scrape

 

I was lucky today

Stupid as I may be

 

I survived to tell

Of my own short comings

 

Maybe if I didn’t dress

For the meeting today

 

I should have stayed in bed

Or just worn jeans instead

 

That man would not have thought

I was his to have

 

Even amid my protests

It was my arm he tried to grab

 

So it must be me

The clothes I choose

 

Maybe I sat the wrong way

Perhaps I should eat more

 

Get a bit more jolly

As some would say

 

At least maybe then

I wouldn’t have to call in shame

 

And tell you sobbingly

That a man I didn’t know

 

Tried to take

 

What I was not giving freely

 

I did not give

 

I did not consent

 

I did not ask

 

Nor will

 

But as I lay

Trying to rest today

 

 

Amidst the aches

He gave

 

I fight the tears

I don’t want you to hear

 

I wonder why

No was not enough 

 

UKV

12/29/2011

© 2011 Ursula Kay Vos


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That would be my living hell...very emotional and strong, well done.

Posted 11 Years Ago


Days can be as dark as hell .. switching on night can be brighter. Seems such a sad state of mind here, a mind calling to go back in time, step into a place where doing something - anything different, would have been a blessing.

Your format, your phrasing is unusual here .. has that *look at me, notice me, i don't mind, i don't care*, BUT it's all created with great care, great emotion.

' I fight the tears ~~ I don’t want you to hear ~~ I wonder why ~~ No was not enough ' .. that's been said too many times before, but, not in the unique way you've put it.

Posted 12 Years Ago


A powerful rambling through your mind dear... I like the way you putting the perfect rutine, of a blurry day out in words... I love your doubts, as they are purely natural. This is just the way it's perfectly beautiful.

Posted 12 Years Ago


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Jesus that was powerful. Such power within such a pulsing beat. It has left me angry and way beyond sad. Incredible work. I really don't know what to say, it has left me speechless

Posted 12 Years Ago


Wow this is quite sad but very powerfull. Really took me in. great work gone into this.

Posted 12 Years Ago


Good poem. depicts pain and helplessness very nicely. good work:)

Posted 12 Years Ago



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Ursula Kay Vos

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