"Still Not Free"

"Still Not Free"

Somedays... I'd like to run away,
Go to a very ...secret place;
Just take me------ myself alone,
Where no one knows...my face.

I will walk down unfamiliar streets,
Gaze upon strangers...that I meet;
But, who will smile and call out my name?
Who will say...I'm glad you came?

Who will knock on my front door;
A grandchild's face...that I adore?
No...for I left that far behind...
Searching for my peace of mind.

And as I search down deep inside,
Seeing things...I can't abide;
I'll try to see me...as I am,
And wonder if...I give a damn.

For...I left everything behind,
But deep inside...what do I find?
I ran away...but I am not free;
I did not escape...from me !

When my beloved sister was
dying of non-Hodgskins Lymphoma,
these were some of her thoughts and fears.
She wanted to just disappear from all
of the hurt and pain in her body and her
children and grandchildrens faces..God
knows how much I love and miss you Lauretha,
I will see you soon in Heaven...Kathie

Valentine

Reviews

[Cassie]

Very sad, sorry about your sister. You will meet in heaven

[andrew mitchell]

A sad write Kathie , very sad, nature at its cruellest!

[Valentine]

She is with Jesus. How could I wish anything better for her? I really do miss her. Kathie

[FaeryQueen]

so much turmoil in this piece! this vibe is good, very sad, though! i just love how you sow your words together!

[R Smith]

such sad but beautiful thoughts Kathie, you made them into this wonderful poem that serves as a tribute to the pain and suffering she must have endured, I know you will be together again one day :)

[Terry O'Leary]

So sad... yet not without hope...
poignant... well done!!

[Perkele.7885]

Someday soon, we'll be all together again, someday soon.
Someday soon, together will be forever, smiling faces, heavenly places, someday soon!

[Willard Wells]

A lovely tribute to a sister and friend. It was good you were close enough to share her thoughts and fears that you share with us now. Well done. She has a smile on her face as she looks down and waits the joining of you two again.

[Valentine]

She was the older of the girls in our family. Very funny, giving, reliable, and loving. I miss her. Kathie

[Rinzin Samdup]

she seemed to be a lovely lady....your writing says it all. I liked the piece!

[wordman]

a sad and touching write,pain makes you do strange things ..

[Valentine]

Ron, she was a terrific sister. Lots of fun to do things with. I am now just around the corner from her old home. Kathie

[wordman]

brings back memories i`m sure,most of mine has gone as well

[Fatema]

soo good !!!!!!!!!!!! i wish i could be like all you young poets

[Valentine]

Sweetie, I am not young, probably old enough to be your grand mother. Kathie