What Goes Up

About sparks of connection between two people, the rare and powerful bonds created and the possibility of losing it.

I've been here before
Balanced on an edge of the unknown
My head full of thoughts, my heart full of fears
Afraid to step off and afraid to step back
With every inhale of breath, I hesitate
Knowing that this is far too good to last
Waiting, just waiting for that inevitable moment
When the ground begins to shake
And time stands still
When my whole world, the one I knew up until that very moment
Completely shatters and drops away
Falling like a heavy rain, drops with razor sharp edges
Maybe it'll be my fault
Maybe it's always been my fault, my weakness
Wrapping myself up entirely around one, sole person
And for that reason, as I stand here
My hands are shaking and my body is numb
It's the law of gravity after all
'What goes up must come down'
And with you, I'm so high, dancing between the stars and planets
You're the bright, full moon in my midnight sky
And the North star when I'm so lost and feeling blue
A connection this true always seems to find an end
Something so transcendent turning to such tragedy
Yet here I am, here I stand at this familiar edge
Not knowing if you'll be at the bottom
Waiting to catch me in case I fail to fly
Or if all I'll see is your back turned while you walk away
As I so gracefully slam into the concrete
I've been here before and it did not end well
I'm scared to move, terrified of losing this delicate balance
So I stand perfectly still, statuesque
Holding within my lungs every breath, tightly squeezing my eyes shut
And I wait, wait for the unknown
Waiting for whatever it is that comes next
Waiting to find out at last, if I will fly or if I will fall
And if you will be there to catch me at all