I'm Not Fond Of This New Me

While the next page is unwritten in my life

you have your planned out- to be a trophy wife

hearing your voice, seeing your face

when your all done up in your black floral lace

and I'm in my jeans, the ones with the holes

I refuse to be another of the ones without souls

 

And I don't want to sleep, because there's another day ahead

and I lay on stained sheets, blemished from where I've bled

Because when I walk into school tomorrow, it will be hell

I promise that when you hurt me, in pain I won't yell

It's not that I'm afraid of you

I'm scared of what you'll do

because I've locked up my happiness, and threw away the key

I'll tell you straight up- I'm not fond of the new me

 

Author's Note

This is written to, and you know who you are, the people that think it's funny to make fun of people that have... problems.

Reviews

[Forever Hidden]

Excellent poetry! People made fun of my friends because they thought they used to cut. They called them names, and did other horrid things becuase they were different.
Remember, you aren't different. You are unique.

[Admiral Kirk]

I totally feel this. This is exactly what my life is like... Everyone's always telling me what I should be too... Maybe I don't want heaps of friends... I totally see where you're coming from, as I have felt this way all the time. I have many said "problems" and people act like I'm not even a person anymore. People seem to enjoy hurting me, particularly my family, particularly my brother. It's like everyone has totally forgotten their sense of sympathy and acceptance... Not like they ever had one, but anyway, great poem! I REALLY enjoy poems that I can relate to because literally no one will talk to me about my problems. They say it doesn't matter... Well, thanks anyway. I definitely enjoyed reading this poem and I'm glad I read it.

[Abhra]

This is an inspired piece of writing. Such eloquence. The anger and wounded pride is so poised and measured yet it smolders. Your poem groans with pain. I absolutely loved the poem and your style.

[A. V. Madison]

Thank you so much. Means a lot.

[♪The Girl Next Do..]

I understand. This poem really hits home for me. I love it. Thanks for sharing this incredible poem, Maddie.

[A. V. Madison]

Anytime, wifey xD

[♪The Girl Next Door♪]

XD!

[Stabitha]

Impressive tight construction and versification.

Bollocks to the trophy women.

Be who you are (which you clearly do already).

Value yourself for your intelligence and creativity.

[A. V. Madison]

Spoken beautifully.

[That_Girl]

I feel your pain! Well written and wonderfully expressed!

[A. V. Madison]

Thanks, Avy.