DARK CHILDHOOD

MY CHILDHOOD

                       DARK CHILDHOOD

Death was surrounding me everywhere I went, loved one’s dying and leaving me alone. 

Any time I tried to escape from the painful words of my dad I slipped into a dark hole. 

Right around the age of 11 I had thoughts of suicide, I wanted to do it so badly, no one understood me and how badly I hated life.

Knowing that I would be giving into the same weakness that my best friend had been what kept me alive.

Crazy thoughts of how worthless I was flashed through my head.

Hatred for the people that left my side when they promised not to filled my body.

I wanted to find a way to release the hatred out, but I had no idea how until I saw  a blade.

Like the stupid  child I was I started cutting to take the pain and hatred out.

Didn’t realize just how bad it was to do what I was doing because it was helping me.

However hard I tried to stop I couldn’t.

Once I started I couldn’t stop.

Over and over I cut my skin,never happy with anything in life.

Day in and day out I was always so sad that I’d start cutting then I’d cry myself to sleep.

Author's Note

MY CHILDHOOD

Reviews

[Caira day]

Bonnie I know how you felt back then. But when we meet each other we both helped each other through everything. I know we don't really talk anymore. But just know I'm always going to be here for you no matter what. Your always going to be my best friend/my sister. I love you sis.

[Wannabewriter16]

Thank you that means the world to me. I miss you and cant wait to see you for your birthday.

[TheBrokenOnes166]

It is very heartfelt, I feel like I can relate to this on a personal level. Like a lot of people could. If you ever need a talk, I am here.

[Wannabewriter16]

This is old and I am now away from this person but thank you.

[Raven]

very touching,i can relate to this poem myself.put tears in my eyes.

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Dark like emotion of abuse person. Feelings what hurt and can put you down. Self destruction solution. Story of pain what shake me down. Realistic words about realistic emotions. I hope you are fine. You did great job.

[Wannabewriter16]

Good moring to you Marketa Lazarova.Thank you for the review that you left me. I would be lying if I said I was okay right now. Would it be okay if I added you as a friend? ALso please look at the other writing that I have posted i here and tell me what you think please.

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Sure you can friend me if you want. I can say I had also experience with abuse at my case is was just violent . I still feel not so okay. I am sorry You dont feel okay. I wish you get better . If I can at some way help just let me know. BE BRAVE

[Raeven]

You did great on getting the emotion out. You told your story, and what happened, and how you felt. What was the purpose for writing this, though? Was it to describe your life, or just to let emotion out?

[Wannabewriter16]

I wrote it for both reasons. Writing gets me calm down.