fragile fall rain

Straight up

Going through the motions
Ego fights, sleepless nights
Playing this life game
Smiling, sadly, sad
I must remain
Harboring this intense pain for
What?!
Ambiguous hopeful gain?!
Passed, past perceptions of what I can attain?!

No.
Listen,
The fragility of the fall rain
On the rooftop-

I cannot cause them further pain,
The precious few in life
For this burden is not mine alone
For I have pained too many
One is too many
In and out of heart and home
Good intent is always there
But why is action rarely near?!
I want to give, not take
Hidden heavy heartache
Those I hold so near and dear
I lose them, I grieve for them, I live for them
As I cry
Hidden, shunned, selfish I lie

Alone

Fragile as the fall rain
On the rooftop

No.
Fight!
Fight
fight
fight
Fight

My heart refuses to sing me a lullaby
Why?!
It won't waste time on my selfish cries
This sorrow I must control,
For it is mine alone.
This sorrow feels out of control,
I fear the power of my mind.

Wait-
Listen,
The fragility of the fall rain
On the rooftop
So near and dear-
A lullaby
"Hush little baby, it's ok to cry."

Motion every day, perhaps things will change
Regardless, harbor the pain

And always listen for fragile fall rain