Demons of Depression

Don't let the lines of reality and your imagination blur, that can lead to catastrophic results. Trust me, I know.

Fixing the problems sitting in heart,

More complicated than engine of car,

Finding the problem in circle of life,

A complex fight impossible to win,

 

Tears begging to be released from devil’s cage,

Heart screaming for break in aching insanity,

Body continuously numb within the smile of fake,

Pretending to be okay in midst of chaos,

 

Once in a while, a smile doth break free,

Only to come crashing down in painful remembrance,

Causing crack in sturdy cold dam of tears,

Threatening to break the façade of a girl,

 

The softest of whispers slipping free,

Lingering unheard in the pain of her existence,

A dismal acceptance sinking into empty heart,

Tears drying for realisation of futile fight,

 

Efforts no longer taken to free self,

Put to use saving the damned and slightly hopeful,

Falling deeper into crazed and painful black,

Saying goodbyes to that which does not matter,

 

Heart only hurting at others pain,

Pain delivered upon self is only deserved,

But theirs is not, they only being innocent,

Needing the help of someone who sleeps forever dead,

 

Torments never stopping, even though fight lost,

Memories drawn slowly, crushing non-existent heart,

Ruthless demons cackling round her spinning head,

Leaving her to fall to end of life, alone, unloved,

 

A girl forever smiling, loving others,

Falling deeper into darkness alone, unloved,

A girl always unexpected, leaving too soon,

Unable to fight the demons of depression,

 

Tears of sorrow, tears of grief,

Her pale face showing a mask no more,

The true reality of her mind on display,

The demons of depression, flaunting their prize,

 

The façade of a girl broken into pieces over ten,

Softest of whispers gone forever ignored,

Body no longer having to fight the dismal fight,

Accepting the fate and taking life, forever gone.

Reviews

[Tashida]

The bad things I used to complain about in my life now seem absolutely trivial compared to what you have been through. I can feel the pain you have been through and I cannot even imagine how horrible it must have been. It's one thing to hear about depression and to see it but it's another to actually have lived through it. I am so so sorry you had to go through this and I hope it gets/ is getting better for you. You deserve to be happy ;)

[WillaDanvers]

I think we each have the right to react to our own demons and problems in our own ways, and shouldn't compare our own problems to those of others because then that will just make everything so much worse. Some people have harder paths to walk, and that means they have tougher demons, and harder fights to fight, but that doesn't mean the next person shouldn't be able to feel pain in their own lives, even though it is on a different level. Sometimes it's hard for us to remember this though :) And again, thank you for your kind words!

[Tashida]

Yes it is and again you are VERY welcome :) I always enjoy reading your writing as much as one can "enjoy" a dark piece.

[R.E.K.]

This is your story I can feel, hiding behind words so very real. I been in these places, seen the demons faces and cried. I watched my life unravel, unable to travel from mind, there I died.
I can tell that you wrote right from your heart
which is always the perfect place to start
Keep writing

you may like my How It Feels To Die

[WillaDanvers]

Thank you for reading and reviewing. Unfortunately yes, this is my story. I am glad you could see how much this write means to me, and I will be sure to check you writing out also!

[Hebe]

Hi Willa, very dark imagery, you created the atmosphere of someone's suffering in a hopeless situation showing how one's mind can lead to a tragic situation... great piece!

[WillaDanvers]

Thank you! Very much!