This feels like the worst thing ever

I F*****G HATE SCHOOL THE TEACHERS ARE OBLIVIOUS AND BECAUSE ITS A SMALL TOWN IF YOU'RE NOT RICH AND AREN'T NORMAL NO ONE GIVES A F**K. I have wanted to kill myself every day I went to school since midway last year. I still do, I thought I was close, I thought I would be fine. The teachers ignore your depression. They do I f*****g swear. Well guess what? All the teachers have driven me off a cliff. I actually hate everyone there. My friends don't go to school, they don't. It's s**t that I have to be put through this s**t. When? When will this end? They don't understand, they dont know I've tried to kill myself before an I will do it again. This time feels worse than the last. This time feels like all I want is to leave everyone behind. You know why? Do you f*****g know why? Because it feels like I am abandoned, like I am alone, unwanted, hated, useless and f*****g shunned. I can't contemplate the anger and sadness going through my head right now. This is bullshit. YOU THINK I WANT TO F**K UP MY LIFE BY QUITTING AUSTRALIAN GOVERNMENT DO YOU? I F*****G DON'T EVERYTHING ABOUT THAT SCHOOL BRINGS ME DOWN. I AM NOT OK. I got told I need help today, I f*****g know that, you don't think I f*****g know that? Depression for 3-4 years with out mediation isn't ducking healthy. I hate everything.

Reviews

[Dorian Wolfe]

So much anger so much hate, clearly you just showed your mental state. Such a body you have created but seems to me it lacks a head. Perhaps you might do with some rest in bed. Has some promise if you know how to word it, yet far to me you sound like a baby who was forced off his mothers tit.

[Taylor A]

Solution to depression and suicide attempts? Definitely sleep.
Yeah, that makes sense.
Not like depression makes people insomniacs.
Of course it doesn't have a head, and of course it has promise: its raw unedited emotion( Hell, I wouldn't be surprised if it she was writing everything that came into her head: a filter-less rant, if you will). Raw emotion will never have a head, that's what makes it raw, and it will always have potential: emotion is what makes writing readable. So thanks for pointing out the obvious?
Finally, please dont compare depressed and suicidal teens to crying infants. It makes you sound like an incredibly arrogant jackass, and proves how out of touch with youth you are.