Disorderly Conduct

Disorderly Conduct

A Poem by Zoe Richardson
"

PTSD sucks

"

Dissonance

Fuzzes and buzzes

In my brain

All my nerves

Skittering and jangling

Words stoppered

In the bottleneck of my throat

Beneath my feet

The floor falls away

 

I need colder skies

The rattle of wind

Stripping leaves and cobwebs

Hot soup and crusty bread

Made with my own hands

I need the comfort of crisp apples

The peace of patchwork

Tucked tight against shivers

A snapping fire

And football on the telly

 

But I am lost in the insecurity

Of second summer

My temper and my stability

Sliding through my fingers

Helpless to hold on

Or call it back

What is this ticking inside

And why do faceless strangers

Think it is okay

To light the fuse

 

-Zoe Richardson

© 2021 Zoe Richardson


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I'm empathetic to your suffering. Suffered all my life with bi-polar and then with PTSD from emotional and physical trauma, I've often warned others, don't poke the bi-polar bear, you will NOT be happy with the end results. My faith is my refuge, and the love of a wonderful woman. That hot soup and crusty bread sounds positively delicious! Ah, the coming of winter in the south...it's heat on in the morning and air conditioning by the afternoon! We just dress in layers and shed our clothes through the day like reluctant snakes coming out of their skins. Another great write, much enjoyed!

Posted 2 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Zoe Richardson

2 Years Ago

I suffer with the same two conditions. Unfortunately, it was love that inflicted the trauma and PTSD.. read more



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Hi Zoe, you write so well on these conditions, of course, because you suffer from them. Sometimes there are no words that can help a situation. I love the content of your honest write on your topic. This is such a real, raw piece of writing, painted with a sad truth. Your writing shines through the sadness of your words. Have a wonderful evening. Hugs always....Mike.

Posted 2 Years Ago


Zoe Richardson

2 Years Ago

It isn't easy to live with PTSD. it sort of sneaks up on you when you least expect it. Writing helps.. read more
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shadrach hah

2 Years Ago

Hi Zoe, you are always welcome. I have heard of PTSD but I know little about it. I know one thing, i.. read more
I'm empathetic to your suffering. Suffered all my life with bi-polar and then with PTSD from emotional and physical trauma, I've often warned others, don't poke the bi-polar bear, you will NOT be happy with the end results. My faith is my refuge, and the love of a wonderful woman. That hot soup and crusty bread sounds positively delicious! Ah, the coming of winter in the south...it's heat on in the morning and air conditioning by the afternoon! We just dress in layers and shed our clothes through the day like reluctant snakes coming out of their skins. Another great write, much enjoyed!

Posted 2 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Zoe Richardson

2 Years Ago

I suffer with the same two conditions. Unfortunately, it was love that inflicted the trauma and PTSD.. read more
The description of the experience is very vivid here. It's a terrible thing to realize that one is not in control of one's own "temper and stability," but rather a plaything, a captive of phantoms from the past.

Posted 2 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Zoe Richardson

2 Years Ago

It's a jarring experience that is, fortunately, temporarily. We are fragile creatures, and PTSD make.. read more
this is deeply disturbing...the speaker knows what she needs, but even with that, cannot seem to unlite the fuse that others constantly ignite...everywhere are reminders of a shattered past...of a deluge of chaos, and it still nags, no matter what the speaker tries to do to offset it.
j.

Posted 2 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Zoe Richardson

2 Years Ago

And that, my friend, is life with PTSD. You never know when the past will rear it's ugly head. Or wh.. read more

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Added on October 13, 2021
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Tags: Poetry, Thoughts, Feelings, Mental Health, PTSD

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Zoe Richardson
Zoe Richardson

Cordova, AL



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Alabama native. Poet and storyteller and all around word nerd. I practice random acts of insanity because the world needs some shaking up. more..

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