Blue Eyes

Do you know what color loneliness is? 

I used to think it was gray

the saddest of colors

like the pages of a worn out book

or the sensation of not being able to keep it together

it was emptiness' sister

the distant relative of the color black

the absence of happiness in its purest organic form

and yet not the worst of things

It is the color of the person I love the most

their eyes

their emotion

their meaning of life

a color I used to swim in but now find myself drowning in

that color that made me look at the ocean with admiration

and want to kiss September skies

now fills me with loneliness

and accompanies my sadness

I always felt sad

even in the presence of your soft eyes

yet I always had them

looking at me with comfort

but this sadness was different

this sadness pained me

this time I did not have your eyes to reflect my sorrow in

The day you left me 

taking those beautiful eyes with you

you didn't just leave me sad

You left me sad and alone

and now I know what the color of loneliness is

it was always the color of sadness

the color of your eyes

It was always the color blue

Reviews

[Rachel]

Wow I just got chills when reading this poem. I can feel the emotional burden of loosing whoever this "significant other" was.... (I'm guessing it the man referred to with the blue eyes), and carried a beautiful message throughout. I am excited to read some more of your poetry! Feel free to check mine out, feel like my last poem is pretty similar to the raw vulnerability a heart break consists of. :)

[Alessander]

Very poignant. Could feel the heartbreak and loneliness.

I esp relished these lines

and now I know what the color of loneliness is
it was always the color of sadness
the color of your eyes

Hits the pangs off loss

[McEltic]

Makes me sad to have blue eyes. I don’t recall ever leaving anyone sad and lonely, so that’s one up for those with Blue Eyes. Enjoyed your thoughts here in this piece :)

[anonymous_at]

I like your writing ...... the way you describe the loss and lonesome in quite a different way... looking forward to your work... :)