I WISH YOU LOVED ME MOM

Now I see those lucky girls

Whose mothers are always around

But you are never there for me

Like you are already under the ground

You give me money

You give me all I need

You call me honey

But you are still not the person you were supposed to be

All the stuff you do for me

Makes me cry

You say that its the best for me

You make me wish to die

You want me to be like you

Do you want me to be fake?

You never see the pain in my eyes

Cause you are too busy pointing out my mistakes

I wish you can be like dad

Who is always there for me

He loves me for who I am

Not busy trying to change me

You never fulfill the promises

That you love to make

You never give love

Just like to take

You are no longer a stranger to me

Cause you have neglected me for such a long time

You leave me in tears

Like every thing is okay and fine

Your hate made  me questioned you

Are you really the person who gave me birth??

Cause you are the reason of my broken dreams

You are the reason of my pain and hurt

Your words mentally beats me down

You call me weak

You are too busy telling me what to do

You don't even let me speak

I wish I can stop loving you

Just like you have stopped loving me

Our relationship is never like it should be

I wish that you loved me

Reviews

[L. Edward Neale]

Sad story. Very moving. Reminds me of the anger I held against my mother. That was until I became a parent myself. Then I realised how damn hard it is to be a parent. Let alone managing to be a good one. So I chose forgiveness. Especially because I learned shed been dealt a bad hand from her parents before.

[teddy]

This one is defiantly my favorite ....Good job!

[afra]

thank you teddy bear!!

[teddy]

welcome barbie doll..lol

[harry]

good one teddy ....hey barbie doll ..lol

[afra]

ohhhh barbie doll ...noooooo .....

[teddy]

oh yeh now we are even

[harry]

nooo harry potter and teddy bear

[harry]

awesome ... I CAN RELATE A OT WITH THIS POEM .....IT FEELS LIKE YOU DESCRIBED MY MOTHER ........THIS ONE IS GOING ON MY SHELF

[afra]

thanks harry porter ...oGG

[mariah]

i love this, i love this, i love this, i love this. you wrote with so much truth, emotion and sadness. i could feel your pain as i read. beautiful work!!!!

[♥ Lexii Boo &hea..]

i love this and i understand where you are coming from and this is great!!!

[Morrigan Nicole]

The only difference here is, I DO NOT love her.

[afra]

my friends are like she hates u but why do u love her ...but i dont know why i still love her ....maybe cause she gave me birth

[Morrigan Nicole]

Yes, my mother is the mirror image of this, I can relate. The thing is, she says she is poor, but we own a restaraunt. We have income from boarding horses too. And we get nothing. All I ask for is what we need, we never have food, clothes, shoes socks, anything. I could care less about all the gadgets and toys, all I WANT are the NECESITIES. But she does not understand that. While us kids are stuck in a roach infested house, her and her boyfriend go at and eat twice a day. We have empty cupboards and fridge. We have to walk five miles to the restaraunt just to eat, then we get yelled at for walking because we live in the middle of nowhere and she sAys anything could happen to us. Like she cares. All she is worried about is child support from my father who I don't even know. Then, when we complain about food, she says she does not need to buy any for the house because SHE is never there. And we argue back that WE ARE always there. She stays the night at her boyfriends while we are stuck on the ranch with not even a house phone for emergencies. Or, the other one, no toothpaste, shampoo or conditioner, OR toilet paper. My older sister and her boyfriend spend all of their hard earned money, which is not much, so that my brother and I could take a decent shower, so on and so forth. She just moved out, living with her boyfriend now. Where she does not have to worry about roaches or no food. we had cps called tons of times and been in foster care a few. And we cannot say anything because we will get separated in different foster homes if we do.

[afra]

OOOMMMGGG i am sorry to hear that ....i taught i was the only one whos mother is like that ....guess we are on the same road

[Morrigan Nicole]

It happens, but the sad thing is, you get used to it. To some people it may seem really bad, and to the people who live it, sure, it's terrible, but it is all you know and it is just.... Normal.

[afra]

yeh but i got my dad he is always there for me no matter what

[Morrigan Nicole]

Yeah, like I said I don't know my dad, or rather I dont remember him, and I don't want to. He beat us kids, and I don't need anymore of that in my life. Sorry you had to go through this, also, and glad you had somebody there. I always had my brothers and sisters, all seven of them. And we all stuck together.

[afra]

awwwwwww hugs *** big hugs **

[Morrigan Nicole]

Why, thank you. :)

[afra]

i want u to know that i will always be therefor u if u need me

[Morrigan Nicole]

Thank you, it helps to talk to somebody who can relate and understand how rough these things can be. Although it is sad, I would rather you were not able to relate, because things like this should not happen.... To anyone.

[afra]

yesh yesh ...not even to our enemies

[Morrigan Nicole]

Exactly, growing up that way is wrong, children need that compassion and love, guidance and support while growing up, not the s**t we were given. It's not right, things like this forces children to grow up to fast, mentally, some can even be unstable upstairs and others, even if they don't do it on purpose, actually do the same to their children. Most of the time, you become what your parents were to you.

[afra]

yesh ...my mom is trying to force me to be mature ...i am only 14 she still wants me to be mature

[Morrigan Nicole]

See, that is not right, being immature is a problem, but forcing somebody to act older than they are is one too. If you are fourteen act fourteen, if you are and adult, act it! No child she be forced to grow up to fast. Although children these days wear booty shorts with their a*s hanging out, their stomachs showing and their faces so painted you cannot tell what the natural color of their skin is. A child should dress like a child. Little girls should not be wearing bikinis, or plastered with makeup. These girls try too hard to look older than they are. But the real ones to blame are the parents, if I caught a child of mine wearing any of that, ooooh, they would be in so much trouble. Not beat, of course, but you know. If you ask me, I would rather look younger than I am than older, you will be thankful for it later on down the road. But as for the mature thing, some parents go to far as to make their children deal, or see things that are not age appropriate. You are fourteen, you should look like it and act like it. No less no more. She does not have the right to do that. I know my oldest sister, Jennifer, had to deal with adult things at just ten years old. Doing my mothers jobs, raising us a lot of the time while she was off doing who knows what. She never had a childhood. A teenager should not have to raise her six brothers and sisters. It's not right.

[afra]

but my mom never understands that

[Morrigan Nicole]

Well, my mother is just the same. They just cannot get these things through the thick skull of theirs. I would talk to her, or maybe not, I know that trying to talk with my mother is hopeless, she won't listen to what. Have to say. She will start to scream. I just bite my tongue and deal. Unlike my brother, he blurts out whatever is on his mind. He does not know when to shut up. He is always in trouble for something, unlike me, I am never in trouble. Ever. But, I'm not one to tell you what to do. I'm just some kid, it's your choice, and I'm sorry to say this, because she is still your mother, but she is telling you to grow up? SHE is the one who needs to. If she is so childish as to not open her mind and hear what you have to say, if she ignores you or listens and does not care, then SHE needs to be knocked the f**k out and told to grow the f**k up! Uh, I have no right to say that, but I know that is what mine needs, and sorry if you get offended or upset.

[afra]

u are right ...she wants me to be like her ....when she was 14 she always looked pretty and stuff ...but i am not like that ..my hair are always a mess and stuff ...she always tells me to be like her ....

[Morrigan Nicole]

Hahaha, I would KILL MYSELF if I ever became ANYTHING like my mother. Don't blame you, so you are a rebel, huh? Way to go!

[afra]

my dad thinks i am perfect but dont know why my mom hates me

[Morrigan Nicole]

It happens, I guess. Nothing you can do about it. Some people you just cannot reason with. At least you have got your dad.

[afra]

yeh i am glad to have a glad to have a dad like that

[Kenneth The Poet]

Sad poem, very stirring.

[Shauna Jacqueline Ander..]

A couple of minor typo's, and adapt the last line slightly to 'that you loved me' and to be honest you've got a touching piece here, the breaks in flow are justified, and to me that's the main thing that let's poetry down. Good work, keep them coming.

[afra]

dont ...and thanks for the review

[Shauna Jacqueline Anderson]

Don't what sorry?

[afra]

oh sorry i mean done ....lol

[Shauna Jacqueline Anderson]

Oh right, that's cool then. lol. Did you notice the typo's I was on about?

[afra]

yeh i think i have corrected all of em

[writingurl14]

I can relate perfectly to this poem... It is a very well written open poem and it touched my soul

[afra]

thank you ...

[Amanda]

I LOVE THIS. I can really relate to it. Only difference is that my mom doesn't give me anything. But my dad loves me for who I am etc. Keep writing

[afra]

but money isn't every thing ..... some times we just need love