No feels

I'm tired of trying to be what you want me to be. I'm feeling so faithless, like I am lost under this surface. I don't know your expectations of me, but I'm under the pressure of trying to be what you want me to be. Every thing I do, every time I try, is just another mistake to you. I've become so emotionless and numb, I can't feel any love from you. I've become so tired of trying, that I have become more aware of YOUR actions. I'm becoming less, and all I need to do is be who I am, and be less like you. Can't you see that your killing me? Demanding my attention, can never lose control over me. Everything that you want me to be, is breaking down right in front of you. And I know that you cannot accept the truth. And I know, that you were probably just like me, with someone that controled over you. I can't be judged for that. I can't be hurt over and over again. I only was trying to be what you wanted me to be, but I guess that wasn't enough.