Paparazzi

Paparazzi

 

I used to be your typical girl.

The average drama queen, crazy socialite,

Easy to fall, but never easy to get.

Miss the everyday perfection,

But never once gave up.

 

Everybody says I’m too young for what I feel.

But I say I was never naive.

They say that school should be my priority.

I say I learn from life experiences.

They believe in rumours about me.

And I pretend like I don’t care,

When it hurts like hell.

 

People pretend to know me too well,

And judge me by what I seem.

They call me an overrated, superficial flirt,

But that’s just not me.

I feel their eyes on my every move like paparazzi.

 

I never denied wanting to live another life.

Out from the criticizing eyes

Of the bare world I have.

They say I should just learn to fit in,

But I always stand out.

 

I try to do good things, which they always forget,

And refrain from doing the troubles,

Which they always recollect.

They expect me to be perfect,

When I just want to have fun.

They keep me cornered,

When I just want to capture the world with my eyes.

 

But as much as I want to escape

This cruel world I live in,

There are still these miracles I call friends.

As for most people want to bring me down,

My true friends always have my back to lift me up.

 

I maybe the most famous controversial girl-next-door,

But I still have my friends to ground me,

To help me figure which way is right,

When everybody else left.

I may have an extraordinary life,

But inside, I’m still the same.

 

Call me anything you want.

But there’s a fact that no one can change me.

They say I should be afraid of how I act,

But I say I can do whatever I want, whenever I want.

They call me a rebel, a humiliation,

But nothing can bring me down

As long as I’m true to myself and have my friends on my side.

 

I am who I’m supposed to be,

And I don’t need to understand the world,

When the world doesn’t understand me.

Because honestly, this is who I am.

Superstar or your own average teenager,

With paparazzi around or not,

I play by my own rules,

And I don’t live in expectations of others except mine.

Period.

Author's Note

btw, not a personal experience. it's actually for my next book, and i don't know if i did a good job, or it just sucks..it's been a long time since i made another poem, and i'm not sure if this one makes sense. reviews please? i warmly accept constructive criticisms :) no rude reviews please coz i already know it's not that good.. :)

Reviews

[Dizzy]

It explains teenage life very well and how it feels to be put on the spot. Constantly under prying eyes. I like and I belive you di a good job. =)

[Norma M Sutton]

I think you capture the agony of being yourself in a world that wants cookie cutter people. Well done.

[HopelesslyDevoted]

intensely wonderful, nice!

[Jazique]

Owe wow awesome! Very out spoken and speaks the truth. Write on!

[Shalini Dinesh (Poet's ..]

The last stanza was awesome, i feel that the poem was really good, it could even be set on tune, its more like a song, maybe at least to me, cause i feel so... i liked it...

[blackrose24]

this is another good write from you. there are a few times when i feel like this, when the people around you throw so much pressure at you that sometimes you want to be escape and be free. i like the last line "I don't live in expectations of others except mine", it honestly speaks for me right now.
it's a great poem, keep writing.

[Jennika has a short att..]

Would you believe me' if I said my mom makes me feel this way? Prolly not, haha, I think it was good, and it's nice to read your writing once again

[Haifa]

Well, it is good, in this poem it seems you have a lot to say.. long poem but its ok. Dont say it is not that good, you should have a good confidence in yourself.

[elyza0926]

why would you say it's not that good? it's great! maybe it's not your best work, like therene had said, but it's still great. while reading this piece, i felt a kind of rhythm going in my head, like it's a song. you don't have to worry about it, it's a good write :)

[Therene]

Spontaneous. :D

I understand your apprehension. This isn't exactly the best of what you have written from what I've read from you. But what I can tell is that this a good opener for your next book. :) The concept might be a little trite but that's how cliche works. I know you can make it better. There's not much of form or meter considering this is a free verse but I like how this flows.

As for content, the perspective is not new but it still is empowering. The strength, or rather the courage, as to which this persona stands for is so strong that I am certainly sure that nothing could stop her. I can only wish she can control things that is happening and is bound to happen. When you live a life of a celebrity, or even those minutely famous, it can get blinding. You wouldn't be able to tell to which extent is good or bad. The border of morality fades as the society demands more from you. It's a crazy world out there. :D

I look forward to reading your book.

Keep writing.