No Sleep

I lay here in the dark, the flashing light

And faint sound of the TV in the background.

Also, the muffled sound of you, awake.

So tired, yet I cannot sleep.

Thoughts, a million little thoughts,

Running through my head.

What are you doing? I wonder…

Alone in that room, while I lay here

Longing to be near you-

Wishing I knew how you felt.

Alone in bed, I am left to fall asleep,

Lonely, feeling uneasy-

Wish you were here next to me.

The minutes pass and turn to hours.

My eyes wandering through the darkness,

I can’t rest, I can’t possibly sleep.

What’s that? You call my name.

You call me to come, then push me away.

Mixed messages, mixed emotions.

Irritation, aggravation in your eyes,

In your voice. But why?

Why do suddenly feel this way towards me,

You push then pull, then push me again.

Is my mere presence that annoys you, or

Are you hiding something,

something that would hurt me?

Why, sometimes do you deny me?

Back to bed, alone once again.

In the bitter, dark room without you,

I wait.

Until you finally come, but

with what done? I can’t get it out of my head.

You lay next to me, your head hit’s the pillow-

You are instantly asleep…

I am still awake.

Wondering, pondering, thinking……listening

To the sound of your breath.

Reviews

[Jibey]

Sometimes it's hard to fathom and our emotions play us uip with their dancing flutters

[Chelsea.]

Nice piece.
I can relate to not being able to sleep because a thousand thoughts are running through your mind at once, and you cant just stop thinking, forget them, and sleep. Also, wishing you were with someone.
well written.

[LisetteCanWrite!]

I really like the honesty in this piece.. I have been in this place and well as a late-night writer even done the same to my partner! (sorry to say) Great word usage and structure.. sometimes we feel as if the other person is keeping a secret from us when they push us away when it may just be a personal issue they are trying to work out .. or emotions they don't want to hurt the other with.. so many possibilities here but yes we can feel like we are getting mixed messages! Thank you for sharing! =)

[Greg Skura]

Great emotional observation of harmony and friction together!

[poetic soul]

melancholy...a pain that has no boundaries to it...very very very well knitted..... this is the worst phase of life... when there is nothing but "creeping, haunting, killing silence" between two people.. reminds of a song..........its in Hindi though...... anyway... wonderful choice of words and makes a very deep n painful read... heart-wrenching..

:) Smiles,
Poetic Soul

[Freder Fredersen (aka G..]

Great honest writing. I would quote a line that I like best, but I felt the whole thing. All feelings I've encountered at some time during my own journey put for with eloquence and poetic prowess. I like it.
I will be back for more!
FF

[~angelalala~]

"You push then pull, then push me again.
Is my mere presence that annoys you, or
Are you hiding something," wow how i can relate to this one. this reminds me so much of my relationship now. i really like the repetition of the pushing pulling idea. this is a great write.

[Mr. Lopez]

I have been in this boat before and was not pleased with where it took me. I first thought that this poem was about insomnia but its so much more. Great peom idea.

Mr.Lopez

[Curiosity and Black Ang..]

Good images. I can relate to the scenery.

[enuf]

a very nice heart felt poem very well done x