Go West

And if I break your heart, I hope that you hate me.
I truly hope that you do.
I hope you'll stand in an crowded bar on some buzzing city block on the West Coast a year from now,
telling your awful hipster friends how horrible I am.
I hope with each drink you hate me more, and you curse my name
and swear up and down that you'd leave me standing alone in the street if I showed up for you that very second.
I hope you'll stand in a drunken stupor at your studio apartment window
with the light from your latest playlist illuminating the crowded room behind you,
and scream at the top of your f*****g lungs.
Because it sucks.
It f*****g sucks.
And no number of drinks, or sad songs, or countless hours spent mindlessly pouring your heart into your work
will ever pull your mind away from the aching hole that's left in your chest.
And I can't sit here and make promises I'm not sure I can keep,
and swear up and down that a year from now you'll still be holding me like this.
I'm a hair too pessimistic and far too weak to offer up such a bargain.
I've had my own hopes up far too high one time too many
to be willing to bear the burden of another human's fragile heart.
But keep holding me, just as you are.
And try your best to never let that look you can't hide from your eyes fade,
no matter what I may try and do to sway you.
We'll hold out for hope and onto each other, because all I know is that for the time being,
you are the epitome of everything I need.

Reviews

[RealistMe]

I like the intensity of your poem. It's nice to see another Wisconsinite like myself on here, too, ;)

[alyssakaye]

Thanks!
And I agree, very cool :)

[RealistMe]

You're welcome. You're also welcome to read my blogs and stories. :)

[RavingMad]

Wonderful :) It definitely caught my attention the speaker says "I hope you hate me". Most people don't want to be hated, so I was intrigued. Well done on that :)

[alyssakaye]

Thanks for the feedback! :)

[RavingMad]

No problem! Great poem! ^-^