How Do I Know?

How Do I Know?

A Poem by Amandaaa Caroline (:
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So, I'm not usually this sad about everything.. It's just not a very good night, and I needed to let out some feelings.. Now that I've written it, I feel a lot better. But please, no hate.

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How do I know that one day,
The temporary gone
Won't be forever?

How do I know that one day,
My mistakes won't ruin
Our chances of being together?

How do I know that one day,
I won't hurt him so much
That he can't forgive me?

How do I know that one day,
He won't reconsider us
And choose to be free?

Thoughts spinning,
All around my head,
Wishing I could redo it,
Or wishing I was dead.

Then I couldn't hurt him,
Or make him upset again,
I couldn't mess things up,
Would he be happier then?

I just want what's best for him,
Even if it really hurts me,
I just want a happy life for him,
Even if it isn't me he needs.

Says that I make him happy,
That I'm the best thing in life,
Says he'll love me forever,
That he wants me to be his wife...

I hope that that is the truth,
And we get over these fights,
I hope that he'll always love me...
And I can stop crying at night.

© 2012 Amandaaa Caroline (:


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This is so different than the "Without Him" poem!! What has happened in the last two weeks to cause this, Amanda? It sounds like he is saying what he THINKS you want to hear by saying words that usually coincide with "I Love You" and "you ARE my heart!" ......He's just saying it in the "younger" version by NOT knowing what to say to you. Do something that connects to WHY you are both together. If you find a sport or even something that you both get to compete at without the distraction of others, that might build character and allow feelings under the surface start to emerge!! No pros and cons list or shopping together, thinking that is "me" time!! lol It's not. Let him tell you what is in his head by wearing him down first with something that takes his mind off of what is puzzling him, and have that turn into YOU building him back up again..... a form of trust and showing your heart in a different light. xoxo -Mark

Posted 7 Years Ago


2 of 2 people found this review constructive.

Amandaaa Caroline (:

7 Years Ago

Yes, I know, I've kinda been on a roller coaster of emotions lately :/ I know that he really means w.. read more
Patrick Henry

7 Years Ago

Seriously, that is awesome news Amanda!! Very col!! xoxo -Mark
Amandaaa Caroline (:

7 Years Ago

Yes, I'm pretty happy myself(: thanks again Mark!



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wonderful! Just imagining how wonderful it would be for someone to be be you!!

Posted 7 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Amandaaa Caroline (:

7 Years Ago

No, hahaha, being me is very awful sometimes. Thanks though! (:
hussain

7 Years Ago

And how beautiful will it be for someone to be loved by you, such break-up poem deserve no less a fe.. read more
Amandaaa Caroline (:

7 Years Ago

Thank you so much (:
:)

Posted 7 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

I am sorry about emotional roller coasters but they do happen. It happens when you are a teenager and everyone gets them. Couples always fight and sometimes they are very explosive but in most cases they work themselves out. Also you don't need to make him happy if you are miserable. There is a middle line between you being happy and him miserable and the same with the opposite. Like I said before everyone goes through these things and we just have to deal with them. I swear on the holy land of Turkey and everything else that it will get better. Maybe not right away but it will get better.

Posted 7 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Amandaaa Caroline (:

7 Years Ago

Hahahahha, thank you (: I think that we have gotten over the roller coaster/ fights for now. Hopeful.. read more
Amandaaa Caroline (:

7 Years Ago

*out of it

Hahah, my bad.
This was filled with pure, sad emotion. Beautifully done, even though it is on the sad side of the spectrum. I hope things have gotten better for you and you are filled with more happiness. Anyway, this poem is so well done and I don't think you need to worry about him leaving you. If he truly does, nothing you do could cause him to change his mind. I feel this way too sometimes when me and my finace get into an argument that is all my fault and I feel like I don't deserve his love for me, but in the end no one is perfect and evryone makes mistakes. True love looks pasts the flaws and mistakes and shines brightly no matter what. I think that's the type of relationship you have going here :) Keep your head up and keep smiling!

~Erinne

Posted 7 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Amandaaa Caroline (:

7 Years Ago

Thank you so much, Erinne (: whenever we get in a fight, and then we get over it and he forgives me,.. read more
Erinne S.

7 Years Ago

You are very welcome and yes, my fiance and I have a very similar relationship to that :)
Amandaaa Caroline (:

7 Years Ago

That's really good!(: I'm glad!
Hope everything works out...u seem to happy most of the time to be this down

Posted 7 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Amandaaa Caroline (:

7 Years Ago

Thank you! I think that him and I are better now, which I'm very happy about(:
dunnia

7 Years Ago

Glad to hear that hopefully it will always stay that way :)
Amandaaa Caroline (:

7 Years Ago

I'm hoping the same!
Oh, precious poet... your words are filled with so many sadly moving questions... makes me just ache, but I know the poetry can bring such release... And there will be pain.. in the best of loves... I know you can overcome all the shadows.. be light for each other... Let everything that happens only melt you more into that beautiful one... Let it out... and then fill each other up again.

Posted 7 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Amandaaa Caroline (:

7 Years Ago

Thank you Craig, I'll keep that in mind(:
An owl on the moon

7 Years Ago

You bettah... or I might have to thump you on the head... :D
Amandaaa Caroline (:

7 Years Ago

Hahahahhaa, oh okay :P
This one made me worry,are you feeling alright now?

By the way,this poem is lovely...

Posted 7 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Amandaaa Caroline (:

7 Years Ago

Yes, I think that I am alright now, thanks for your concern(: and for the review!
Yumi Lyra Sarazen

7 Years Ago

Great :)
and welcome (^u^)v
Aww, I'm sorry to know you're feeling this way. I do hope that you're feeling better. Fights always happen between couples, I am sure, but the importance of them is that the couple can hold on to each other no matter the arguments. Of course, I am conscious that arguments cause internal conflicts of security and/or guilt but they always go away and love stays.
I'm sorry if I sound kinda off topic but I am someone who has not experienced love first hand so I don't know exactly well how you're feeling. I just know this because of friends.
Again, I do hope you're feeling better and that things are well with your couple now.
Great poem to express your feelings,
-Penelope H.

Posted 7 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Amandaaa Caroline (:

7 Years Ago

No, you weren't off topic, what you said was completely true. And yes, I am feeling better now, I th.. read more
Euro

7 Years Ago

Oh, I'm glad I wasn't of topic! I just sometimes feel I sound stupid while giving comments on person.. read more
Amandaaa Caroline (:

7 Years Ago

Hahahhaa, no, you didn't sound stupid at all :P I love to hear people's opinions on things(: &thanks.. read more
Suicide is not the answer. Especially if your main reason for it is so your significant other will be happier. Seriously, my boyfriend killed himself in August and I still haven't gotten over it. I'm not saying that you should leave things the way they are, because if this isn't working for you then you need to change it. It sounds to me like you still love him, but some things have happened and you're afraid you're hurting him somehow. But if he really says the things in the poem, you shouldn't really be worried. It's an awkward situation, I know, but you guys really just need to get past it, and let the beautiful relationship emerge. Talk about things, do things you both enjoy, be together but not exclusive. It'll work out.
Ranting aside, it's a beautifully written poem, and a very fluid vent of those depressing emotions. Great job.

Posted 7 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Amandaaa Caroline (:

7 Years Ago

I've never been the suicidal type, you don't have to worry about that, I'm fine. It was just a bad n.. read more
Lina Grey

7 Years Ago

oh good. I understand the worrying and venting and everything, I just get worried whenever I see tha.. read more

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