In Loving Memory

the lyrics of a rap song i wrote and sang to my childhood bestfriend

What a cruel world we live in
When the dead take a piece from the living
I need to clear my head, the tears are blocking my vision
I’m hanging on a thread, I need some kind of mission
Some kind of diversion from all of this commotion
Something to go through the day
I need to move on in some way
But it gets harder everyday

What a great shame
What a massive pain
What kind of wisdom are we supposed to gain
Who should take the blame
Continued on the next page
Is it all just a dream?
Is it all some sick game?
Whatever hell this is the anger’s too big to contain
When the anger fades all that left is pain
I need to start again
A reset button for my brain

What a waste
Such a demean grace
What a harsh reality that I have to face
My heart aches
I’ll no longer see your beautiful face
I really hope that you’re in a better place

They say in another life you shall reborn
We’re the ones who have to adjust to this new life after you’re gone

They say you’re in heaven but down here it feels like hell
The tears are burning while our hearts say their last fairwell

It’s getting hard to breathe
I don’t know what this means
My heart is broken yet with every single piece
I wish you found some rest
and that you’re finally living in endless peace
Yeah you rest in peace

Chorus:
They say you’re an angel now
So spread your wings and fly away
My guardian angel
You’ll be with me everyday


What kind of destiny
For the first time you’re not here to sing with me
I hope to make you proud of me
So I wrote this song in your loving memory
What a lovely memory indeed
Maybe writing to you is all that I need
Cause talking seem so silly and the words are meaningless
When you can’t hear us
Lying there so lifeless
But maybe you can hear us when we pray for you
Praying isn’t my favorite thing still I pray for you

You know I love you and if love was a crime
Then grieve is the price and the punishment is time

I’ll always think of you whenever I sing to the beat
I’ll be missing you with every heartbeat

I’ll be saying your name with every single breath
For now I’ll just wait for this moment to pass
Let my soul cope with the cold and ice
Until we reunite again in paradise

Chorus:
They say you’re an angel now
So spread your wings and fly away
My guardian angel
You’ll be with me everyday

Author's Note

i wrote this as a tribute to my best friend since childhood who died last year. my thoughts live through my words and he's sure gonna be a part of them, always.

Reviews

[ZakLeonRamsey]

I hope he rests in peace.
He's still with you, you have fragments of his mind and how he thinks, your beautiful memories, and they will stay with you forever. Your words show true emotion and how much you miss him, your words are beautiful and everybody else will miss him, but he is with you for as long as your soul exists, and even after life. Whether he dies or lives, everybody is with you, because all the good times are still in your head and you care for him and he knows up there you care, so even though it was last year, I hope you stayed strong. Respects from me :)

[Amanda Moubarak]

thank you so much Zak for your beautiful words. it means a lot. it's been hard accepting but you are right, people we love never truly leave us. i appreciate your words and this comment. :) :)

[Paul Bell]

First, great write.
If you can bring someone back, then a song is the way to do it.
Life sure is cruel, and the cruelest is when someone dies young.

[Amanda Moubarak]

yes. so true. thank you Paul for your comment. means a lot