my speech

rehearsals in my mind

I have it all planned out.
I said the words
a thousand times
in my mind --
my parting speech.

on that day
I will say
the three words
you already knew,
and walk away.

Author's Note

oh let me have my melancholy days:)

Reviews

[AprilRN1210]

we can plan until the cows come home, but in the heat of the moment, emotions overrule rationality.. that internal struggle that causes that doubt and need to rehearse is what will be the fuel to that fiery fiasco.. I do the same thing.. never ends up like I practice in my head either.. ever.. grrrrr

[Lyn Anderson]

Well, I think personally if I didn't do that, I would blurt it out accidentally, and that would be worse.

[AprilRN1210]

yep, I feel the same

[Matching Socks]

Ha! I'm so guilty of this. And then it inevitably comes out wrong!
Or I think of all the things I could have said, after...

[Lyn Anderson]

I think it's an affliction of the verbally gifted.

[Matching Socks]

Lol! Could be. I won't argue with that!

[therisa]

Am glad, I'm not the only one, who struggles with, what I want to say. Even with planning, I seem to trip over my own words, as they abandon me, at my time of need. Sigh.

[Lyn Anderson]

Of course you are not. Those of us good with words probably struggle more. Cause we are so darned wordy.

[therisa]

Thank you, KL, for kindness. Just wish I could speak, like I can write. Things will be, so much easier for me.

[Lyn Anderson]

Yes join the club.

[Rene Salinas]

I am not sure why I find this funny but I do. Best laid plans sort of feeling. I rehearse stuff in my head all day long and when the times come then to implement boom! A twist or the unexpected or the "where dd that come from" stage. Of course you can revel in your melancholy there is no hard there but what manner of cruelt is moving the strings ? Can things just go my way for once?

Thankyou

[Lyn Anderson]

Oh my gosh! Someone who gets it. The wheels turn, we think, we plan, we laugh at ourselves and do it all again. Thanks for letting me have my misery and taking it exactly as I feel it.

[Rene Salinas]

When it rains over here KL the first few drops land on me .....

[John Alexander McFadyen]

A painfully sad piece where the protagonist feels compelled to do somethoing she would rather not. The rehersal needed to convince self but also a symptom of disatisfaction with the bargain between the two where perhaps she feels short changed?

[Lyn Anderson]

It's more about doubting that it isn't going to end. A fatalistic approach, a defense mechanism, preparing for the worst.

[jacob erin-cilberto]

i love you, or i loathe you---
one or the other...but i will say my peace before i leave...
and the ball will be in your court.

good song by the way...quarterflash...

[Lyn Anderson]

Yes, I guess in the end the old motto holds true "prepare for the worst"