You Are.

to be in control of the test. 

to break the tube open and 
be born new. to breath with
out the expectations that 
came with you from the womb
to breath from the lungs granted
where others 
emptiness.
Beauty holds fragile, and strong
guides the arms, holding you close
closer when you are starved
there is not enough space when
you lay down your head to knees
and need someone to know something
some deep hidden thing, some knit
together riddle. the meaning of a life
compressed and contained by
numbers and slipping cells, dividing yourself.
you did not choose to bring risks to
the mother, and the mother may not 
have understood her risk. But there is
still a but and that is beauty. And there
is always and. 
then and more. there will be silence, and
adore.
the worth it is worthwhile to see. eyes
light ballerina broken thighs and cried
out why. You are worth the holding on
it takes to hold out my hand and think
of you. 
you are worth all of the effort because
there is no other you. 
cherish. respect. 
anorexia is a kite, dismembered and
taken from the sky. can still feel the 
wind, and it causes the belief in the 
movement even when standing still.
But 
Again 
But
there are beautiful colours.