he broke (up with) me

A Poem by anais.vionet

a breakup free verse poem - kind of long - but I was "feelin' it", sorry I wonder If I used other Genres, like Erotica or sports - would more people read this =]

What a lonely, peculiar, eccentric scene i must be.. a girl in the middle of the yard crying at a iPad in the darkness..

It was a clear spelling out, like steel cuts thru fruit.

As he spoke he looked down and away, his gorgeous face blank and indifferent, as if I were wasting his time or he was talking to a child needing an obvious truth taught quickly

When he finally looked back at me, I saw no sea of pity, no foreign code of conscience in his impersonal, hazel eyes. I couldn't breathe.. I couldn't think.. I needed time to contemplate the universes new laws.

Can a girl just suddenly die of heart-ache?? because I was sure my heart was stopped, locked and frozen.. finally, I gasped in this impossible new air.. the force of it made me hold the cold-iron stair railing - the game is rough.

He's so.. male, all chase and careless passion - intelligent teaser, devilish engine of mischief and corrupting charm, skilled steersman of excited climates.. OH, you simply have NO idea.. and now he was.. gone.. still there, but gone really - as if he'd transformed into a hologram or had begun an orbit in some other universe.. he just..

"You made me feel.. ..so very special" I said. I had lost my balance on this faithless, unequal and disfranchised world where heaven so cruelly punishes desires. "You made me feel I MATTERED.. such a favor.. the perfect gift", I said, absentmindedly, as I turned, and went back up the three steps and into school.

I don't think I looked back at him as the door closed.. after all, he wasn't THERE any more. I think he called my name.. like a question..