Awaking Dreams

And I’ve wondered all along

If my dreams were merely dreams

If I could have been a part of…

That I should have been there

That the one’s I’ve meant to

embrace,

have laughed and cried

will live and die

with me.

 

Will I strive to salvage?

Combat pity and regret?

Stare fate in the eyes

And proclaim

“Not just yet”

 

That there is no such

defeat within  me..

That giving up doesn’t

lace my genes.

 

And inward I multiply

Forsaking regret

Leaving nothing behind

 

This is my life

What I’ve lost

What could have been

Doesn’t shine in my light

 

I apologize with sincere

To the ones I’ve done ill,

The ones I’ve loved

and the one’s not here.

 

I know words don’t pacify my crimes

I just wanted you to know…

… I’m still alive.

And no, life has not passed me

by.

 

And the twist of my existence

is that

I refuse to merely survive.

I will thrive, just not in the ways I thought were

right.

 

But most days I just thank God

that I was ever able…

 

…to see my face in the reflection of your

eyes.         

 

    M.A.De.

Reviews

[Aries]

Letting guilt and regret dictate one's life is one of the most destructive things, I should know... when we become engulfed in it, we drown in it, as if deserving to suffer. It's hard to lift from that slump to where you are at acceptance. I'm still on that journey. Uplifting :)

[Matt DeFranco]

Thank you very much!

[Vidya Bacchus]

This is a truly uplifting poem.We should be strong and not only as you say "survive but thrive."I like this :)

[Matt DeFranco]

Thank you Vidya!

[Vidya Bacchus]

You are welcome:)