Haunted

I didn’t know what to do

Because they had left

Even when they wanted to pretend

They’d hang old pictures on their walls

But my tornadoes came and knocked them off

I didn’t know how to fit anymore

My silence isn’t meant to cause pain

I just don’t know what to say

I had been painted a different color

I had taken on a different shape

I had rebuilt myself after the tragedy

After I fell apart, memory by memory

I fell into pieces that they picked up off the floor

I don’t need you anymore

But I wish so badly that I did

You knock on my door from time to time

And I don’t know why

How could you repair this?

What would you say to me now?

I wanted to be someone they had

But now I’m nowhere to be found

She said I was always a part of them

But she has erased me

And I didn’t speak his name anymore

I was a shipwreck

I was up to my neck

Letting the tears wash me away

I don’t cry as often

I finally feel like I can do it on my own

Don’t know how this life is gonna go

Don’t know who I will become

I don’t want to lose them

But I don’t know how to go back

Craving a comfort they once gave me

Hoping to find it in someone else

I will learn to find it in myself