Vicious Circle

Vicious Circle

A Poem by animamundix3
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I personified my eating disorder I guess.... I don't know, tell me what you think.

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Trying to escape from the harsh grip he has on me,
I come so close to finding it, that thing that I keep searching for,
I grope in the darkness in search of myself,
Something I lost so long ago.
I feel something brush my finger tips,
I lunge and hold tight, hoping that I have finally found it,
But when my eyes refocus, when reality washes over me,
I see that it is him, and he takes my hand,
So warm in the cold air that has enveloped me,
His eyes so inviting, and his warmth so comforting;
He’s captivated me, yet again.

He takes the lead, takes control,
And I know with him, I will never win,
Sometimes it’s easier to give in,
It’s a vicious circle, it never comes to an end.
I finally begin to grasp reality,
Come to the harsh realization that he is abusing me,
But then, I turn around and there he stands,
Open arms, a fake smile, reaching out his hand,
Reciting a rehearsed apology I’ve heard too many times,
And yet I still reach out my hand and I take his in mine,
Intertwine fingers and hold on tight,
A vicious circle never ends.

He takes control and I don’t mind,
I begin give up, lose control of my own life.
He seems to be the face of perfection,
What I wished I could see within my own reflection,
To be the answers to all of my questions,
I remain oblivious to the chains which he has tied to me,
Sometimes desperation blinds you from reality.

© 2008 animamundix3


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Brilliant piece. The idea of personifying your disorder, absolutely brilliant and well written, as well. Love it. Great work.

Posted 13 Years Ago


You have captured the reality and truth of an eating disorder. Its a very good write and I hope you can over come your sickness as quickly as you let it in.

Posted 15 Years Ago


That's a really good explanation of an eating disorder. The last paragraph is my favorite...
and even though you can see that the beauty of it is just a mask, the thought of your bones being revealed is absolutely captivating and almost impossible to escape.

Posted 15 Years Ago



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Added on December 26, 2008