A mile in your shoes

Waking up to the rain

Pounding on the window

And hoping and praying 

That somehow she might know

You're thinking of her

Wherever she ended up

You don't know why it matters

You don't even know what

What you feel, what you think, how things ended with her

You google her anyway, because you want to know

You want to know what took her away

Why she had to go

You went through all the bullshit, too

And it begins to hail on you

You try not to think about it

But it hurts you so badly

You miss her so much

And you still love her madly. 

It thunders through your system

When they talk about her the way they do

They don't know their negative opinions

Constantly stab at you

Trying to find the words to tell them how you feel

To tell them you want to know her

You want a mother for real

The one who's supposed to love you

And care with all her heart

The one you were bonded to 

Nine months before the start

And lightning strikes 

When you realize

That you're brave enough to ask

But you look into their eyes

And it hurt them

Why could you even think

That you could have the best of both worlds

You can't do everything

Your life's so much better now

Never hungry, your own home

But you don't understand half of yourself

Even with your friends you feel so alone. 

You try your best to keep the hurricane at bay

But one of these days it will break away

It will ruin you

It will take over your scene

I know what will happen 

It's happened to me

And all of these people, when the storm passes through

Will tell you that they're all here for you

But what these people fail to do 

Is realize that walking a mile in your shoes

Is like walking five miles barefoot through hot desert sand

Broken glass, melted lava, uneven sharp land

And when the rain

Relieves the pain

It turns to hail

And you start again

And you have to get used to the blistering cold. 

The erratic climate changes begin to get old. 

Your feet are bleeding, blistered, frostbitten

And you try your best to keep them hidden

But somebody will try to come strip off your shoes

But it's your job to tell them what they're getting themselves into

Author's Note

hashtag mommyissues or some shit

Reviews

[Esteban Morfín]

----------->Nice one.

[Shimae Parks]

sooo soo much better I always say the poems that come from experience are always the best ones! great job

[Annabelle Lee]

thank you lol

[Ayushi]

Very deep write..
Last two stanzas are specially commendable.
Overall great read :)

[Annabelle Lee]

thanks a bunch!

[Moonie]

"Is like walking five miles barefoot through hot desert sandBroken glass, melted lava, uneven sharp land"
Hahaha, I lovethis line. The poem presents all the raw feelings in an amazing way. A wonderful read.=))

[Annabelle Lee]

Thank you so much!