Anxiety

 Anxiety takes hold,

And suddenly you can’t breath.

Your heart starts beating

Faster and faster until you're faint

And the shakes start to show

As your thoughts attack

your already weak soul.

 

You struggle for your calm,

Self-medication is the key.

Smoke half a pack of cigarettes,

Down a cappuccino

And run, run away from everything.

Hide from the world until you’re normal again.

 

If you ever were.

 

Scream—it helps the breathing,

For whatever reason.

 

Write—it gets the thoughts with claws

To stop their assault on your mind.

 

Alone—being alone is important,

It gives you time to hide the shakes.

 

Then, as if nothing ever happened

Go back to life.

The worst is over,

Your mask of calm is back.

And no will know what a mess you are,

Because that’s even worse than the attack itself,

 

Pity…

It kills what little strength you have.

Reviews

[bluessadmood]

very strong and sad writing..anxiety..
yes it helps
to write have a smoke ..scream a bit
but it always aches.. no matter
it tears at your heart
warn you down..you resist ,lots of fight inside..
but will lead you nowhere ..i know the feeling
Alone-being alone is important,
It gives you time to hide the shakes.
Then, as if nothing ever happened
Go back to life.
The worst is over,
Your mask of calm is back.
And no will know what a mess you are,
Because that's even worse than the attack itself,
Pity ..yes it kills the little strength you have
very nice writing ..i like this type of writing,i enjoy it..ha ha
wonderful write..

[Brette Medb]

Wow. This was so moving. I loved every bit of it. It's definitely been me lately. Amazing how one finds they have the strength to go to war themselves but once their significant other goes they fall apart. Yet for me the most important part is convincing everyone else I'm ok, that nothing is wrong, and that I'm whole, all in one piece. I loved this.

[Areya Valena]

took me a long time to realize that u sent a read request for this and i am truly happy that i got to it. This is truly amazing, and i agree with all the methods;; suffering from anxiety myself, i can relate to this poem.

[*~Imperfectly Me~*]

Wow, I so know where you're coming from on this one... I'm feeling most of this at the moment... I think anyone that has anxiety can relate to this. It was such a strong poem! Everything flows and everything screams. So Wonderful, this is definitely a favorite of mine... The emotions were just wonderfully expressed.

[Miss Shea]

This make me think of the end of a panic attack, when my head is finally clear enough to think a little, think enough to calm me down the rest of the way.

You did a wonderful job of describing it in such few words.

Keep Writing!!

[Sarah]

I loved the desperation & panic laced throughout this poem. I can see the scene play out in my mind as I read it. In particular, I loved the lines, "Write-it gets the thoughts with claws / To stop their assault on your mind." Very interesting & dark. Great job with this. :)

[Collect-Eye]

I like to turn my negative emotion and channel..
there's always someone screaming for attention if you turn your eye just right.
it's an akido technique. I'd be happy to show it to you.
or you can just read carlos castenada..I guess he's mastered it.

Very factual.

And a valuable lesson for all.

Great Fundamentals.

A wonderful piece.

[Avery James]

I love how accurately you describe the emotion of anxiety. The locked feeling in your jaw, the shaking of your hands and the nicotine headache that doesn't involve a cigarette. I've felt it a lot lately. I also like how the poem is a bit jerky, but it only highlights the feeling of jumpiness and nervousness. Good job, honestly!!

[Delilah Dunn]

Yet again, a great depiction of a common emotion, one that I, myself, have a lot of experience with. The only criticism I can offer is that there are a few minor grammatical errors that could be fixed with just a bit of simple proofreading. As for the piece itself:
As usual, your imagery is amazing and your thoughts are honest and open. I also love your "outlets": screaming, writing, and being alone to do so; these are outlets that are quite helpful and I am speaking from personal experience. Thanks for the great read.