Happy

The only thing I truly want but can't seem to grasp

What do you want to be when you grow up?

A firefighter, a policeman, a nurse?

When I was asked this question I said I wanted to be a vet

As if healing animals would heal the pain I felt constantly

I first realized I had depression in 7th grade

I would not care about anything or anyone not even myself

She would tell me I was just like my father

And i wondered

Was it his fault i felt this way

I blamed him, i blamed her

I blamed everyone and yet no one at the same time.

Something is wrong with me and

I dont think i can handle this anymore

So when they ask what i want to be when i grow up

I say happy.

Author's Note

Be honest. But try to be as nice as possible because I often cry.