leave it to stars.

A Story by arcturus

I love you but I am afraid. I am afraid of all the uncertainties the future holds. I am afraid that I will only hurt you at the end and it breaks my heart to think I will be the reason for your unhappiness.

But i love you, my darling. You saw flowers in the dark corners of my mind. You found beauty in my storms. You loved me when I thought I was unlovable. You taught me I was worth it and for that, Iam forever grateful. All I want for you in this lifetime is happiness but I am not sure if I am the right person for you.

Iam a disaster, my dear. I destroy everything that is in my path. I have this incapability of keeping good things in my life to stay. But you, oh god, I want you to stay. However, I know if I keep holding on, I will only break you. So I will slowly loosen the tight grip of my hand, letting pieces of you to slip and fall out. I want you to know every moment spent with you shined and if you end up with someone else in the future, I hope you make that person experience it as well. For now, I will leave it up to the stars. Whatever the ending of our story may be, as long as you are happy, I will be as well.