Hardest Obstacle

Surrounded by hundreds of people

Trying hard to stay strong

Eyes look my up and down

They stop as their eyes hit my face

 

Red rimmed eyes and a runny nose

A smile being forced to shine

Heart racing, head pounding, eyes hurting

Stomach dropping each time I look up

 

Music blares inside my mind

Wishing to be anywhere but here

Stranding strong for the world outside

On the world inside I’m breaking down

 

Not knowing what people want from me

Terrified of the world around me

Hoping people don’t give up on me

Trying to push myself through everything

 

Loneliness begins to wash over me

I continue to try and hold it together

It gets harder t watch people walk away

Not knowing if there’s anything left to say

 

Memories are locked away in sections

Each holding a different meaning then the next

Reasons of why to tell myself have run thin

I watch hoping they’ll turn around

 

Watching as my life drifts away in front of me

Time moves forward as I stand still

Sleepless nights carry on forever

Becoming a by stander in my own life

 

Dying is easy, but living is harder

Getting through it while everything slips away

Being strong when I wanna break down

That has become the hardest thing to do

 

Reviews

[unbrakable fragile gir..]

I Love this soooo much I could say I know how you feel but I would be lying because I can connect a lot from what I know of this pice I think it's wonderful and I hope you can look at my writeing sometime but I really love this

[al25]

Love the last stanza. Your right being strong when everything is falling apart is the hardest thing. Great write :)

[MiidniightSoul]

I loved this. It's an amazing piece. The last stanza was my favorite, so deep and emotional. "Dying is easy, but living is harder." This is so true. Most people simply exist, they don't live. I know this feeling all too well, pretending to be someone you're not. Everyday smiling and laughing when the only thing you want to do is cry. So beautifully written. Brilliant.

[Gomer LePoet]

Welcome to the world of life. We all have these doubts, pleasures, fears, desires.
I guess that is what makes life interesting. you never know what is around the next corner, the next person you meet. the next .....

[Sweet_pale_cacophony]

I wished i could reach out as soon as i read this..i have exactly the same way and i know it sucks but hey hold on..it will be alright.