i want you to disappear

i want you to disappear

A Poem by Karina Lindner

being in pain feels like your veins are burning up with a fever sometimes and yet the temperature won't turn off; so you feel sickly and weak but you keep carrying the weight of the world anyway

i really want to scream
to fill a room with all my fears, my hopes,
so that one small rock can fall of the mountain that
keeps growing on my shoulder blades

even though they are weak,
everyone knows that they are weak and yet they,
though they love me, or so they say,
they place small stones

huge boulders-
they pile them on and on until they barely fit,
until my shoulders ache
and my back cracks beneath the weight

they know the screaming, violent, absurd,
they know that it will worsen my pain
and so, unbothered-
they let me scream, the corners on the stones

shredding the skin on my back,
causing ripples, waves of agony, of defeat
but -the screams continue as i still suffer the weight
that they keep placing on me

on top of everything else,
i can no longer struggle the pain.
the excruciating pain of all of it-
it makes my mind bleed.

© 2022 Karina Lindner

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Karina Lindner
what do you think of this one, it's quite personal

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Added on February 1, 2022
Last Updated on February 2, 2022
Tags: self worth, vent, pain, mental health, self help, identity, confidence, morality, death, life, health, power, self control, weakness


Karina Lindner
Karina Lindner

Lincolnshire, United Kingdom

hello there; my pen name is Karina Lindner. i have decided to join writerscafe because i want a safe space to post my poetry without the blatant judgment from my peers. i hope you enjoy my work! more..