Broken Inside

The way I feel when I'm let down.

I am not sure what hurts
I can't find the words
I am ashamed of myself
Feeling stupid again.
It casts doubt over you,.
It tests my trust.
I'm angry yet hurt.
At the faith that I put,
In a man that my heart,
Has chosen to love.
More than that,
I'm upset.
That you've lost my respect.
That admiration of a man,
That I thought that I knew.
I feel what's been broken,
Can never be mended.
So I'm grieving it's death,
I am mourning the loss.
It's a process they say.
But what they omit,
That unlike most,
The loss it is felt,
moves deeper than life.
For it's the choice that is made.
A betrayal of sorts.
To abandon the pride,
That comes with the fact;
That the woman that loves you,
Once felt safe in your arms.
Now feels you would do her harm.
Your treatment of her.
Breaks more than her heart.
It shatters her worth.
It burns from inside.
She takes all the pain,
The humiliation.
Makes up a sense of self.
For the three spoken words,
She still holds to be true.
If he loves me, she thinks,
Then all this must be me.
I deserve the maltreatment,
And this pain in my heart.
I expected much over,
My value and worth.
It is all my fault,
I must play that part.
If I don't, the love is lost too.
Which is the last breath of life.
And too much pain to endure.

Author's Note

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[Levi Levin]

Great expression here also. Any man that is a gift to a woman will never make her afraid of harm but he will make her feel safe in his arms.--Levi