I refuse

Goodness Gracious! I thought I was happy! Where did this come from?!

This is my stream of consciousness.

no… unconsciousness.

I can't possibly be conscious.

If I was, They I would be making decisions

Ignoring my choices

Forging ahead

very Very Far ahead,

but I'm not.

I am behind

Very Very Far behind...

I have a crazy person on my desktop!

He is half man half dog

Haha...

gotta love bowie, crazy bowie

He's the Best.

The last hero of mine

still alive.

That's amazing.

Does it happen to you?

You're

watching a movie and the one person you truly connect

with

       Just like me…!

Kills themselves.

That hurts. Am I supposed to die, too?

Am I supposed to do drugs, overdose, get murdered/ commit suicide, leave a massive debt

Such A Shame!

I Refuse!

I will not become an alcoholic at 14. I will not be shunned by family with the exception of that small child I will not betray. I will not die.

I refuse.

I will live.

I love life.

    Thats what they all say, little one. They all die in the end, little one.

Silly little Night Bird.

You'll die in the end, little one. An early end, little one.

Posthumously, little one.

Silly little Night Bird!

Well. I refuse.

Author's Note

Another Stream of consciousness poem?! Wow. This was NEVER possible before!
Couldn't type fast enough :)

Reviews

[Angelic Surrender]

Great poem! Keep refusing! Life is precious, so precious. Always remember that. Great write. I loved it.