Maelstrom in the Great Divide

Maelstrom in the Great Divide

A Poem by beautifulblade
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 Raised by dysfunction
and bathed in wishful thinking --
a bubble bath of denial that choked
my ability to breathe.

Lungs inhaled anger like oxygen,
though my mind never allowed it
to be felt without sadness,
my all-consuming mask 
of insecurities and depression.

Swaddled by fear and bound emotions,
no soap could wash away the feeling
of his fingers,
and no minty fresh breath could
erase the taste of his tongue.

Bath water stained by crimson confusion,
and surrounded by a chaos that nobody knew --
Neglect, Abuse, and Trauma became my mentors,
outlining the path made by other people's decisions.

Walking barefoot down that gravel road,
feet marred by broken glass and memories
that left bloody footprints playing
Follow the Leader
with open blisters and fractured dreams.

When rain came,
it burned as acid on my skin
cleansing my broken body from within,
leaving scars that were never wanted
carved into the question of 'why?'

Why was my mind left hanging
on a noose of unspoken words
and forgotten apologies --
an executed entity
that never really mattered.

Your sister never mattered.
Your assumed granddaughter never mattered.
Your child never mattered.
I
      never
                        mattered.


With no voice, there was no sound;
no indication of my own feelings
until one day when my feet
stopped walking
and the invisible tears had carved
such a well-worn path down
the surface of my cheeks
and left craters around my feet
when they finally hit the ground,
and my voice came rushing back
with a scream of such agony
and confusion
that the ensuing earthquake
knocked loose a hidden personality
full of pain and rainbow colors
that only wanted to make people feel;
washed clean by tears
that turned into rain.

© 2015 beautifulblade


Author's Note

beautifulblade
https://soundcloud.com/mariah-li/maelstrom-in-the-great-divide

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My name is Mariah Lichty. I'm 20 years old and have been writing for around six years. more..

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