Shut doors

A Poem by Dear Aurth,

I don't hate her, I can never ever do that ... But she could understand my side.... thats all am asking for ...

Each time,
made me feel needy,
'You've lost a part of me'.
Ever been, 'where else to be!',
its like bouquet nicely tied and ready.
Needs are meaningless!
blurry eyes see you senseless.
My words won't make you feel,
how'll my tears make it though.

She'll never know,
the reason I shut door.
She'll never know,
what I want, I dreamt for.
All this while fighting to be perfect,
realized it's not started yet.

Heart needs a shoulder,
where I crash, hold on be there.
Heart needs to be bolder,
for I look upon, find strength there.

A fair trailed finger,
What made it to be there?
The scars I bore,
the reason I bled,
What made it to be there?
She'll never know,
the reason I shut doors,
its my incapabilities,
She expected, I was never too close.