THEY SAY TIME HEALS ALL

MY LIL BRO IS WEIGHIING HEAVY ON MY HEART TONIGHT <3

THEY SAY TIME HEALS ALL

JUST WONDERING WHEN AS I SIT HERE STARN AT THE WALL

MY SADDNESS AT ITS GREATEST AND MY HAPPINESS AT ITS ALL TIME SMALL

 

I FIND MYSELF REFLECTING BACK ON YOUR LIFE

IMAGING YOU HAVING A BIG FAMILY WITH A BEAUTIFUL WIFE

THEY SAY TIME HEALS ALL BUT THE PAIN IS LINGERING HEAVY IN MY HEART FEELING LIKE A STAB OF A KNIFE

 

THERES NO EMOTION TO DESCRIBE THIS LOSS OF MINE

LIFE GOES ON AND IM SUPPOSE TO WALK AROUND LOOKING LIKE IM FINE

TURNING TO MY LAST RESOLUTION IS TO BECOME NUMB, I THINK I'LL HAVE SOME WINE

 

IM NOT SURE WHAT TO DO WITH MYSELF

NOTHING CAN REPLACE THIS HURT NOT LOVE, NOT HAPPINESS NOT WEALTH

IM FEELING LOW BUT FOR YOU BRO I WONT LET THIS AFFECT MY HEALTH

 

MY EMOTIONS FEEL LIKE A NEVER ENDING ROLLERCOASTER RIDING ON THE RUSTY TRACK

I GOT A TATTOO READY IN MEMORY OF YOU ITS GOING ON MY BACK

HOPEFULLY IT WILL GIVE ME SUM PIECE OF MIND, SOMETHING I LACK

 

I DONT MEAN TO CARRY ON

BUT IM TRULY SO SO HURT FROM THIS BROKEN BOND

WRITING EASES SUM PAIN

BUT MY EYES FEEL LIKE HEAVY CLOUDS FULL OF RAIN

TIME MAY HEAL BUT IM SURE ILL ALWAYS FEEL THIS PAIN

 

BIIKAY-

 

Reviews

[Kenneth Compton]

Loss is something everyone relates to. We have all lost someone close. The older you get, the more of those people you lose. I lost my brother Ricky when I was 14, then my daughter when I was 25. It's a lot like love in that it tastes different every time we experience it. It is amazing, the different facets of pain we can know. Pain is refracting light, its hues done up in different shades of hell. The pain never changes, like your others senses, it just dulls over time. Remember others know that pain, remember we are here to share in it. Remember that we are none of us alone.

[BIIKAY]

Aww thanks honey. Im really sorry about your losses...:(. you mentioned that we all experience losses and pain..Im 23 and this is my first time ever experiencing it hints prolly why im such a wreck over it.pain is something we become immune to right?i hope. I dont mean to write and post about it but it clears my mind and i feel little better.BLAH

[Kenneth Compton]

The figurative heart is more bone than organ. It breaks, it remodels and fuses, harder than before. We learn to live with pain, it becomes something we draw strength from later on. Nietzche said what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. In this case I believe he is correct. He also said that he who hunts monsters should look to it that he himself does not become a monster. When you stare into the abyss, the abyss stares into you. I take this to mean (in your case) do not wallow alone in your pain, or it will consume you. It is good that you express it here, or anywhere for that matter. If you are down, let your friends lift you. If you are broken, let those around you put the pieces back together. We've got the glue, if you've got the time :)

[BIIKAY]

awww That is too touching. thanks for your insight and support! I love how you said when you stare into the abyss it stares into you.very strong words...

[Rhianne Ney]

It's correct that time heals it all no matter how long it will take
I love this poem of yours
Keep writing 100/100

[Jolie Blossom]

So deep from the heart and soul. I can't believe this happened. Seriously, Hod takes them too young. :( I know he's missed by many and he'd be happy to know how much you care about him. Life is too short... Don't understand it. You know I'm always here for you, and that'll never change!

[BIIKAY]

thanks jolzy!! yea so unfair. honestly i wish i could be over it and not sad and mopy but i truly cnt help the way i feel at this time. at least im walking around with a smile. my escape and vent is writers cafe but also special ppl such as yourself.! i love it here! i forget about my daily life and slip into a world of peace. i love uu jolzy thanks for being a great friend- crazy how we been friends for 20 some yrs!

[Jolie Blossom]

dont ever feel bad or apologize for the way you feel though, we all deal with stuff that affects us or makes us sad/angry/mad. wearing a smile and trying to see thru it is probably really hard but atleast it is a little uplifting. i know when one of my really good friends died, and several of my family members passed, i was messed up for a while... i dont deal with death very well at all. but trying to keep a good perspective on things is healthy. :) i know its crazy!! i dont think its been 20 years, lol more like 10, but still a decade is a longgg a*s time! here's to more and more decades!!

[BIIKAY]

AWW THANKS BABES!! ppl liftn me up is a great thing, and slowly helpn.and also cheeeers JIMMY! ;)

[Mia]

I was told that when you lose someone your heart is filled with pain and sadness and longing and all kinds of terrible, difficult emotions. That never goes away but you meet new people and they make you smile, your heart grows a little. You fall in love and your heart grows a little, etc. So even though the hurt never goes away your heart gets bigger and filled with some happiness, which makes dealing with the loss better as time goes by. This of course annoyed me and I really wanted to tell that lady to f**k off, it’s easy to say that when you're not the one suffering. Nothing anyone says is enough or even remotely comforting. What’s even more annoying is that she was right. I was 17 when my mother died and I couldn’t think about her without breaking down and feeling s**t. I’m 22 now and I can think about her and smile because for 17 years of my life I had the most amazing mother. I still miss her every day and I suspect that will never change but I don't feel like I can't go on anymore. I hope you get to that point and I truly am sorry about your brother. I hope it’s not over stepping to say this, but I think he would be just delighted that you’re getting a tattoo in his honour and glad that you use writing to ease the pain.

[BIIKAY]

wow, first you put alot of thought into your feedback and that is SOOOO very appreciated, secondly wow thanks for sharing your story that means alot to me. I am very sorry about your mom. and I envy you for the strengh you have found to carry on. VERY AWSOME. you did not over steph any lines and I sure hope I find strengh soon too. I think even though im not literally walking around in agony, i still am inside and i think our hearts get tired of us crying the same old song and heals us. it happen this month so its rather fresh. ughh i dont want to be sad anymore do we have control to change our emotions??like a remote? lol again how nice of you to share your story it means alot. xo! stay strong!

[Mia]

I would love said remote, life would be so much easier. Its okay to sad, its better to feel it now and deal with it than pretend it's not there because it always comes back. For me the toughest part was that people forgot so quickly and unintentionally expected you to be over it. It's hard to be sad when people except you to be your usual happy self. I hope you have people around you that will be patient with you and support you. You are strong! The fact that you can write this proves that. Give it time your strength will grow and you will surprise yourself. Talk about your brother a lot, tell people why you loved him so much. He must have been amazing for him to leave you feeling so hurt. He lives through you now and through the love you have for him. If you ever want to just speak about it or him please feel free to message me. I will listen glad and I mean that 100%! It happened so recently :( I truly am sorry...I wish there were magic words I could say to somehow help. BIG HUG!!!!

[BIIKAY]

AWWW YOUR SOO SWEET thank you soo much for caring..your def right when you say ppl expect you to carry on like your happy old self. i work full time and school so its been my free time mostly nite that i get upset. i thank you for your kind words for they have touched my heart. this life is soo unfair.for now i will continue to express my greif through writing bc no one wants to be around someone that is mopy. so i hope no one gets sick of my depressing writings bc this is like my only vent where no one can judge me!! i do have great ppl around me but if youv never been in this situation then you dont really no what its like so its easier tlkn to someone that knows EXACTLY what im talkn about! xoxo thanks sweety you have a great heart!

[Mia]

Well if people have a problem with your writing being dark they can f**k right off! You do what you have to and thats all their is to it! You really don't have to thank me :) xoxo

[BIIKAY]

lmao wooo there killer settle down HAAAA lol I look forward to stayn in touch and enjoying your work!! :)))

[Mia]

Lol *blush* I got carried away...me too:)

[BIIKAY]

LMAO I THOUGHT IT WAS FUNNY IF ANYTHING!

[Lehlohonolo Lichaba]

sad but awsome

[BIIKAY]

THANK YOU MUCH!! :))

[rnuff]

Very nicely written and said. I like what you have to say here, Nicely written.

[BIIKAY]

aww thank you! I appreciate the feedback!! I will read some of your work just gimme a few minutes ;P

[Geraldine]

Awww, I'm sure losing someone very dear to us is really painful and pretty tough for us. Just always remember, they maybe gone but they will always have a special place in our hearts, and don't forget that there are still a lot of people around us who care and love us too. Yes, in time it will heal but for how long? I think no one knows. :) Anyways, this is a pretty piece and very well expressed.

[BIIKAY]

awwh! I appreciate you reading this :) ughh Im trying VERY hard to see positive in my lil brothers death..im struggling...:/. i just want to bring him back. and i had a thought today,,OMG my life concists of alot of ppl that are older then me..siblings friends,,fam,,im young..no one nos when they'er time is up, however if i live my life to the expected lifespan im going to be losing alot of ppl in the future. just a depressing thought that crossed my mind today. :o

[Geraldine]

Oh .. I've felt that way when I lost my grandmom who have became my second mother, I grew up with her. And I was really devastated when she was gone, considering the fact that I couldn't do anything for her 'cause I was just a kid. I wasn't there on her funeral and burial and that added on my burden. But as time passed by, I just have learnt to accept it. ^^ Oh yeah, that's life. Losing someone is part of life, and you will not be the only one who will experience that. Everyone will. :))

[BIIKAY]

aww thats soo cute! grandmas are always the sweetest lil pumpkins on earth. OOOh dont get wrong idea babe lol it wasnt a pitty party for me I was just sayn ughhhh this is just the beginning of losing a loved one crossed my mind.absolutly -everyone will def experience this. some more then others >.

[Geraldine]

Oh yes, they are. ^^ Oh of course it's not. I'm just sharing my own experience though.

[BIIKAY]

thank you for sharing!! I appreciate it sweety!:))

[Crazy Cat Man]

Ouch i can relate to this piece a lot. and ur also from Ohio. and that hurts a lot for me. My ex from Ohio has clearly moved on...but she wanted to keep in touch and I felt like fool for keeping in touch with her. I only felt heart break and longing when I talked to her.....i felt like shes doing a sick game in keeping in touch with me which clearly shes moved on with someone else. So I had to block her on facebook and her friends and family. I cant take it. if she contacts me ONE more time. ill tell her to leave me alone forever.

great piece so sad but true. but we must move on in order to find true love and to find someone who appreciates us :P

[BIIKAY]

ok first yes you need to block her now and not give her another chance to stab you in your achiing heart. let it be. I have a thick back bone when it comes to ppl breaking up. you no what there are plenty of fish in the sea go fishing but watch out for sharks and seaweed ;P to bad for her buh bye close that chapter and move on. i dont understand why ppl live their lives dying inside to be with someone that clearly does not want them, im not talking about you just in general, easier said then done but really done is just as easy as said ;O. sorry that your hurting tho bud theres someone fabulous waiting for you :(

[Crazy Cat Man]

I understand what ur saying. but she was the girl that I loved the most but clearly she does not feel the same way. So whenever she reached out to me..i will answer back like a dumbass....but im clearly seeing that im just here for her sick entertainment pleasure..... so i have to be strong from now on to say f**k off. my bday is coming up so i will expect to write a email or sumthing. but ur right. i have to finally say f**k off.....i have several poems about her LOL like 8 poems LOL ull see

[BIIKAY]

lol! dont be wasting your beautiful pen ink or tap of a keyboard on another thought of her, i dont like when ppl have bad intentions if you have nothing nice to say then shut your mouth. simple as that! :) i can see being bummed out a week or so but after that nah buh bye!! once you find someone else shel b like dam..i was replaceble.LOL

[Crazy Cat Man]

thans for your advice. but i feel like my poems about her are hilarious. i tear her apart and i feel cathartic but yeah ur right. i dont know what else to write about her anymore. it sucks that shes still friends with my friends and she asks them about me. i dont know whats her problem. she should just f**k her husband and leave me alone

[BIIKAY]

shes MARRIED???lmao...ohh man. ha well turn your writing in a whole new direction. she dont deserve you to be thinkn writn and prayn on her. F that. lol i mean I dont know details but Im just saynnnn

[Crazy Cat Man]

yes. i saw her new last name when she wrote that she was thinking about me. She thinks we can still be friends lol..... but its too late. she should just f**k her husband and leave me alone. it sucks that i still love her. its hard for me to move on. well see

[BIIKAY]

youll heal in no time!! dont dwell on it. the more you do the more youll be down.

[Crazy Cat Man]

thanks. i guess i feel bad more when things dont work for me in NY. so many flakey girls here who give u their numbers but dont bother calling back after one phone call LOL. i just do one phone call and thats it. if she doesnt respond then thats it. cant force it