Can't Take All Of Him

A week I had
A week I found out
They said you'd last least a month
Found out Monday
You were gone by Sunday

I visited you three days within seven
I wish I spent more
I watched you die
Every minute
Every second

I take back all the back chat
I take back all the names
I take back all the threats
I take back all the arguments
I didn't mean it when I said I didn't love you

You were there in my life
I've lost you at fifteen
The cancer killed you slowly
People knew you'd go this way
I just wish you'd stay a bit longer

If I ever got a boy I was deeply in love with
I wanted you to give me your blessing
I wanted you to walk me down that aisle
I wanted you to see my grandchildren
I wanted you to see me persue my dreams
Guess I always needed you

The day you held my hand tightly then let go
Made me cry until I felt like dying

The day you looked at me and knew who I was
I cried with joy

The day I stood at the door
And seen what has happened to my only father
That you have become someone only in my worse nightmare

My nightmare has lasted a week
Now
I will live it forever
Waking up
Only causes so much more pain

I miss you dad
I love you

Author's Note

My dad has recently passed away 22nd of January, I only found out the 16th he had cancer from smoking.... The funny thing is, is that it all happened in one week.
A week I found out he had the cancer, seen him three times that week, he told me not to worry, that he'd get better .....
Then I get news on saturday saying they dont think he'll make it past monday...
He passed away the Sunday... when i was going to visit...
This is my worst nightmare... and the worst week of my life so farr
And it gets worse when i like someone who doesnt like me back... again.
The best thing i can do now is hold my chin up high and smile all the way

If you know anyone who smokes please tell them to stop, you dont want to lose someone specail to you and then find out they dont have long left, you have to endure seeing them die... I wish I made my dad stop back then

Reviews

[Sweets]

May his soul rest in peace...
This is such a wonderful dedication to such a sweet and loving father.
"The best thing i can do now is hold my chin up high and smile all the way" I know you're the strong beth and you can handle it !
Sadness is only temporary and happiness could last forever.
I'm glad you wrote such a poem because it truly shows how much you love him
Hope he hears you and guides you forever. May his soul rest in peace

[Goodman Prick]

I'm sorry to hear that.