Bitter Hate/Fate

This is an older one. I wrote this when my ex and I were separating.

Laying my inhibitions out onto the floor...

(trust me) 
I'm well aware that you 
don't love me anymore

but this night... this fight
it has to be our last,
we need to put these hateful words in the past
my feelings are in check
but they are fighting with every last breath 

(my mind knows the way
to pave the road for a happier day)

I love you, yes it's true, even if wrong
but here with me...

its just not where you belong 

I tried to hold on
with every ounce of me left, I fought
but it has only brought both of us pain
utter confusion and distraught 

I wish I could change the bitter feelings inside
but I know it is in my hands 

in which this fate lies 

I do not want to see you go
but I know you can't stay
if only it could have gone another way 

my emotions are far too erratic
one minute I miss you
the next there is just static 

and if I could change all of this
I would
(believe me) 
if only I could 

I know right now you are filled with bitter hate
but promise me this does not seal our fate
I am sorry, sincerely, for the wrongs I have made
and I bear that cross for you
each and every day 

one day I know I will see the brighter light
and one day we will have things other to say than fight
but I have to convince myself that the day isn't done
that my life 

has really just begun 

Author's Note

This is an old poem I thought I would put on here. I still do love it even though I want to change it. I am trying to preserve my feelings at that moment.

Reviews

[Harrisen Viator]

I really enjoyed reading this poem. I have been in the same place before, wanting to let go, because of all the pain you've gone through for the one you love. I like how you switch your rhyme scheme up throughout this poem, because it keeps the reader on their toes. There is a small amount of inconsistency throughout, but you make up for it with the emotions I feel from reading it.

[Jupiter]

Thank you, Harrisen. I know I am not the best writer by any means, emotion is where it is at for me. I even review based on that fact. I want poetry to make me feel something. I am glad I could do that for you.
Your comment was very sweet, intelligent, and genuine. I appreciate that!

[TLK]

Harrisen, I say it again: you are an excellent reviewer.

[_w3rd]

I enjoyed this peice ..Honestly I enjoy all your poetry .. Theres something about your poems that make them all flow so nicely with emotion ..keep Up The Great Work ;)

[Just Kim]

This is really good, deep and well expressed.

[Jupiter]

Thank you, my lady!

[Just Kim]

not a problem in the world : )

[Robin]

Preservation is a must in this case. Time and healing sometimes takes the bite out of our writing. Read my poem and the comments "He Speaks to Me" which was written about my 1st marriage almost 15 years ago. I found that I am more reflective in the piece. To me this came with the passing of time and healing that has taken place, and the pure happiness in my marriage now. So my advice: preserve this piece and write another one if you just feel compelled to do so.

[Jupiter]

Thank you, Robin. I am going to check that out now.

You bring up a really good point I hadn't thought about... taking the "bite out", I like that :)