I Never Knew

I never knew I'd end up like this

In love with a man who doesn't love me

I never knew love would hurt so much

No one warned me of that

I never knew I'd feel such pain

unable to fake a smile and hide

I never knew my journey would be endless

Forever searching for a soul mate

I never knew such a being doesn't exist

He's merely a dream and a wish

I never knew I'd become so jaded

Forever untrusting, forever doubting

I never knew how easy it is to lose yourself in the pain

Mind numbing, heart chilling, all consuming pain

I never knew I'd have to find my own strength again

I'd let some fool take it from me

I never knew I'd crash so hard

losing myself in grief

I never knew my life would come to this