Give Up The Habit

both of us, using one another

two lonely souls returning again and again to their vomit

knowing there is nothing there to sustain

but as you pointed out, it's easy to return to the familiar

so very true

 

I don't know about you

but I am willing to risk

the unfamiliar

rather than

spend any more time

wallowing

in this pit

 

what you perceive as me running away

in reality

is my senses hitting me

causing me to wake up, and realize

and bolt

 

the pattern is old

the habit is old

there is nothing here

 

knowing also

you are not the one

fighting against this truth

having wanted so badly

for it to be you

 

we are apples and oranges

two different flavors, varieties

both good

but very different

 

have mercy

on me

the one who

was shown such shocking things

while "speaking" with you

assuming it was you

 

romance should not cause one to panic

looking back I understand my actions, my fears, my sadness

I could not understand

how I would be starting a new life

under such duress, stress, and misunderstanding

 

I will not give my heart to a judge

or an accuser

or a doubter

 

lessons learned, wisdom gained

 

I happen to know

that I was correct in saying

"you are not the father"

 

but my puzzle remains unsolved

knowing

you have held a piece or two

confusion has been king

 

my words pain you

irritate and grate upon your nerves

but why?

it's words you have chosen to remain hidden in

it's poetry you have valued more than anything else

it's fantasy you have cherished- not me

why does it bother you

that I sometimes step in

and "speak" to you

in the manner you have chosen?

 

you never forged another way

you never changed the course of this ship

you have shown me that

you are a responder, on the receiving end

Dear, let me be the wind in these sails

 

I hope for a change of course

a fresh wind

a new direction

that will steer this ship of fools

on a sea of confusion

 

I hope

that you know

that I tried

 

and I hope

that you remember me

in time

and laugh

 

until then, hate me

but just know

you reap what you sow

 

 

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[Captain Ugly]

Well written.
Just me.
Capt. Ugly