Romance And Pain

some are just not made for love

 

Romance with lots of pain

I knew her all the way ,since I set foot on that wonderful island when she first asked me if I was really from Iraq ,and she laughed ,and joked that she was also from Mars ,when I affirmed what I said ,she just looked at me with stunned eyes ,not believing ,you are joking right, she said .No ,I went on…

She just kept looking, now very silent ,there was a long a pause ,I could look in those beautiful blue eyes ,she was so tall ,very nice looks ,eyes so wild and lively ,yes I was drawn and accustomed to her looks and to her face ,she really broke my heart every time I looked at her from afar ,but then she would eye me every while ,I really wondered...

So there was a long pause when she said ,so you are from there , but I heard no one is left there ,I thought everybody died in a while ,then there was another pause where she kept looking at me ,yes she said ,it serves you right ,you fought the whole world ,then her lips quivered and eyes gone moist ,I could hear, see muffled sobs ,then she said so faintly ,no ,no really I never meant it dear ,I am sorry, you never deserved that, I heard from my sister once she worked in Iraq ,she told me ,you were nice people,oh yes they never let you live ,but surely they want you all dead ,now there was almost wild tears ,and cries ,tell me , she said, there are so many like you from there, like us human ,with everything, hands legs ,nothing missing ,I heard there were some horrible things from there,oh dear how could you stand all this and still in your right senses, do you really still feel like us ,do you love, could you love me ,I saw you look at me once ,but I dismissed it ,now that I know ,how could you love ,I think all you do is hate ,do you hate me ,but I love you dear I could take you in my arms give all the kindness in the world and protect you from the so much pain you surely feel ,what have you done to deserve all that ...

We were standing at the entrance to the emergency rooms, under a small roof that kept us dry from the raging rain, as now ….

 it was raining like mad, as if the skies were also sad and crying, the rain, the heavenly tears ,that's why I think I went down the rain so it fits me well, I was near her ,I was looking in front of me and I kept silent all the while ,then seeing the rain ,I was taken by the great sight, the rain kept pouring on the all around you high green grass, all the tall trees, the sight was great I felt myself very unworthy of the going on sad talk ,I took some steps into the rain, I did not know what I was doing she must think I was going mad, I was a mess now, all wet ,but I just liked to feel wet and having that rain falling on me and I turned around to her ,I looked at her ,she was somewhat baffled at me ,her eyes looking suspicious, that I could have gone mad ,I took a long look at her and smiled in a very silly and loony way ,you think I am mad ,I said ,yes I think so dear, I went on, sometimes I got these wild fits ,I am sure I am crazy somehow ...

she looked back and was very alarmed ,I think she wanted to pacify my feelings and smiled ,I could see it was a forced smile for I could see she was really alarmed at what was going on ,and said ,come on dear, come back from the rain ,you will mess up your clothes and hair, and your soul ...

I looked back ,no ,I said ,leave me here ,you go back in ,I will not bring my troubles onto you ,I am really troubled in mind, I want to stay in the rain ,and I kept smiling that very unhealthy smile ,very surprisingly ,she came into the heavy rain ,took my arms and took my head in her hands and kissed me strong ,it was the sweetest thing I ever felt in a while ,I just kept looking at her eyes ,now I could not hold my tears any more so I let myself into a frenzy cry ,she just kept kissing me on my cheeks like trying to wipe the tears away ,and she hugged my tight ,I was so happy while still crying ,it was very mixed feeling ..

Here she pulled at my arm and took me back to the back yard of the building, this is the back door to my room, she said, and she went in and pulled me inside, and closed the door.

Author's Note

things that happened ,just will not get off my mind

Reviews

[emmajoy]

War and what it does to human beings is hell on earth. The nights of fear, not knowing if there'll be another day; days of perpetual war-made noise mingling with the eruption of bombed buildings , screams, calls for help, calls to unseen family, and then deathly silence before it all begins again and again and again. The loss of loved ones, the loss of dignity, the fading of a culture and history - all that's happened before century after century after... and, continues today. No wonder tears need kisses. No wonder people need kindness and sweetness.

One day Mankind will achieve success - war will have won, Earth will be gone- there'll not be a world. Curtain down. The play's over. It was a tragedy. But there'll not be another one, there's nobody left to fight.

Sorry, written too much but your story got to me. Such a thought provoking piece.

[~angelalala~]

there were 3 sentences that really struck a cord in me: "as if the skies were also sad and crying, the rain, the heavenly tears ,that's why I think I went down the rain so it fits me well", & "come on dear, come back from the rain ,you will mess up your clothes and hair, and your soul ..." & finally "I will not bring my troubles onto you ,I am really troubled in mind, I want to stay in the rain". i could picture this entire scene in my head, you've created such a story with your vivid imagery & the raw emotions put in this piece. truly sad, & truly beautiful. an ode to love in even the most hostile of times & places. you should write short stories of your life more often. again, a beautiful write.

[The Reticent Receptioni..]

*shudders*
"....but I heard no one is left there..."
excellently written.

[Sheila Kline]

Oh Dear, no wonder these thoughts not get off your mind! They have to be set in stone so to say, as they are such a dramatic accouting of real life events!
I am just spellbound by your story, and how you have told it, but so very saddened that it is true. It is the way we treat others in this world of ours. We have but one true God, we are one people and yet we fight, and maim and kill, and destroy futures for so many. Then when our men and woman are called to fight a war, they must obey and we say it is to defend liberty, country. Who is right........how do we determine the answers to questions we ask.
You are a special friend, and we are blessed to have you as a part of our forum.
I am sooooooooo sorry for your pain!! I am glad you found this special woman!
With love and Friendship,
Sheila

[Janice]

In the midst of it all, though perhaps coming from different places, it all seems so uncanny how we can also share the same fears, weaknesses, desires and yes, even the same strengths. Oddly enough at the end of it, when all is said and done, we can even share the same bed. Most of us fear the unknown, but when familiarized with it and as a very wise man once said .."We have nothing to fear but fear itself"! Another beautiful story, another wonderful read..Thank you for sharing!

[Robyn]

A really emotional piece. I absolutely love the line, "you will mess up your clothes and hair, and your soul," so beautiful. The rain really set a nice backdrop for the story.

[Jake Donald Stephens]

Very interesting, the preconceptions people have about those from other nations, but how we're all alike underneath it all. This is a powerful and informative story, thanks for sharing.

[Laraine Davis]

This story shows so much in such little words. It has many different meanings mixed in with it. The conflicts of war, and all the worries and fears that is bubbled in with it. Its a terrible tragedy and shows who is really the cowards and the bravest out of the people.
I really enjoyed reading this:] And thanks so much for all the comments on my writing.

[Helena]

What a beautiful story, and all the more compelling because it is true.

I am at a complete loss for words at the moment....this touched me so much. The emotional storm, the underlying current, the honesty, passion and imagery made for an excellent read.

What a wonderful writer you are!

Helena

[darkgurl]

there is a lot of wisdom and emotion in this write it is so sad but truthful....Kim

[Antony]

I don't understand how some people can think that others from other countries, are any less human then we are, that baffles my mind, our creator gave everyone of us emotions, it is how we use those emotions on others that make the difference, Your last two stanzas are the best and it is a way that I think all countries at war with one another should come to realize and act on, I will call it, "Kiss and make up" in reality it is very easy to do, I am glad I stopped by to read your work.
Antony