Weep

I may not be pretty

I may not be smart

I may not use the words

That are best for my heart

But my head keeps pounding

But my heart keeps aching

Yet I hold it in

I explode within

I may have thoughts

I may be smart

I let you overcome

I let you break my heart

Maybe I cry

Maybe I weep

Maybe I devor

All that I keep

Sometimes I’m deadly

Sometimes I’m insane

Sometimes I worship

But I see it’s vain

Envy, I do

Lust, I won’t

Destroy, I can

I will it so

My thoughts are deadly

My heart is putrid

My hands are straining

My mind is hazy

My life is long

Longer than I wish

I wish to die now

Let me weep

The heart that I had

I no longer wish to keep

Cut it out

Put in another

Give me another brain

For all that it matters

I weep for the loss

I weep for the gain

I weep soundlessly

Inscribing I’m insane

I can’t make you hold me

I can’t force you in

I want to lust you

But I can’t afford the sin

I can’t take chances

It’s breaking, can’t you see?

I'm weeping my desires

On the pages you left here

Blank canvas filling

Black as a soul

I wash away the edges

I play in the frames

I weep for you madly

I am only insane