Day Seventeen

Day seventeen:
Thursday, July 5th
My cousins are leaving today... I am kind of excited for them to go... with 15 or more people staying in a 4 bedroom house, I love them but I get frustrated and annoyed with them after a while. The quiet will be nice. I have nothing to do today and nowhere to go, I am not sure what to do with myself I am always running around tiring to get everything done, well I guess I can always do some more work around the house. We will see.
Austin text me again today asking for mom and dad's number. i know he has it in his phone and even if he didn't he knows it. sometimes i feel like he is holding me back. every time i start to move on with my life and try to except the fact that he and i are no longer together he texts me knowing that i hold on to it as a bit of hope that he will realize how much i love him and miss him. i juss want him to be happy. before this all happened we were both happy and even now he looks so happy...i want whats best for you even if it hurts. i am so sorry but even if i could take it all back i wouldn't.

When my world is shaking and my heart is breaking that's when you come in and crush what’s left of me.

Reviews

[Maan]

Haha same happens to me when I'm with my cousins. I first gets very excited about being with them but gradually I get bore THEN I realize that they are actually boring. It happens to me very time I meet them. :)

I don't know why are you letting him hold you back when you want to move on. If you really want to then his texts shouldn't matter, right? :)
Don't stay like this, admit to him that you love him and all, that might let you to some conclusion.

[frozensakura]

i really like what you had to say about closure... i actually did something like that(: