I try

what if i wanted to change?

change into somebody else?

what would i do?

what could i do...

 

i no longer know myself

im fed up with playing pretend

ill try

to find out who "myself" is

 

i no longer understand

when and why i let myself cry

tears of many things

regrets and lonliness

ill try

to hide them away

 

wounds inside and out

scars that have leave me with no doubt

i see blood flow

that ceasts to end

i try

to act as if there no longer real

 

with all these thoughts in my head

i try but have no reason why

i cant go on

but ill try to live life

and act as everything is alright

Author's Note

on mi mind nd felt like writing -athena

Reviews

[NoneOfYourBusiness akaK..]

well there you go!~ profound travails!

[Calypso]

Wonderful poem.
There some a point where you should stop trying to take care of everyone else.

[Sir Robert Robbie Lord ..]

extremely moving to the very heartbeat
everything is alright when there is flowers and candy included
and cakes and steaks the Queen said, let them have cake and celebrate
the King said, let them have steak and celebrate and so there was a
compromise .. May, i interest you in steak and cake and
conversation over it, my poor beautiful dear little woman
we both can win win with cake, steak, flowers and candy included
that will always and forever create some clue

[light and ashes]

A great poem and enjoyable read. Searching for one self, a noble quest.

[StarSandwich]

Awh, don't pretend to be someone else, I'm sure you'll discover yourself. Ether it be though writing, friends, family or something very interesting. You don't need to try to be some thing others want. :) But you can go on, be strong something fanatic will happen soon :)

[lovely-livia]

love it!!

[Alicia Hirshey]

This was extremely moving and relate-able on so many levels.

[MichelleClay]

Very moving. Well done. I could relate to your feelings in this write.

[Japanese Cherry]

its great! i enjoyed reading! ^.^