Common confusion

i dont get it...

i feel like breaking down, crying till my eyes run dry and shrivel up, why? i haven't the slightest clue, but as of now, i want to burst, let the tears flow for eternity, give up on everything, and lay as waste, i feel as lowly and emotionaly crippled as a child who lost their only family they had left, stranded and alone, weak and powerless, frightened and cold, eternity is a long time to spend alone, a long time to spend depressed and fatigued, a long time to live in a daze of nothingness, not able to quit, for life stops me, not able to strive for life hinders me, stuck in a black hole of wasted time and energy,a life wasted in the views of mortals, a waste of creation in the views of the higher being(s), a life, wasted trying to love, trying to hate, trying to die, trying to live, trying to feel, living under the watchful eyes of those who think they are better but are worse, those who think they are worse but are better, and those who see me as equal who are inequal, i am brandon, the pained and long suffered being, the tortured and beaten soul, tread lightly for i do snap, but leave your positive prints in the sands of my life, i may need them to live later on in time...

Author's Note

ignore grammar and spelling.

Reviews

[Hedra Helix]

neat man, ;) clear and thoughtful even in the midst of sharing your truth and suffering, you're brave and able with your words. I've felt that and known many others who have too, so aside writing, feel comforted you're not alone. This life thing is tricky to figure out, especially if you haven't said f**k it and aren't down to don some wool and jump in with the sheep.

I dig the intensity, clarity and flow.

[~*~Peace Keeper~*~]

I like it...sometimes we all feel this way to give up for what really matters...but we shouldnt give up...and we are never alone...many times we might feel invisble or that no one cares but there is always going to be someone that cares...even if we dont know it right away.
Great Job

[samantha]

very nice writeing hun keep it up

[I Am Svetlana]

I can relate to this in a big way, only because I sometimes cry a lot for no reason at all and I beg myself to find out why! SO...yes, I know exactly how you feel in this...I think it's very nicely written

[turtlegirlluver]

Wow, you captured your emotions very well in this piece and described them how they really effect us. It's very deep and thoughtful at times and expresses the feelings and internal struggle when you just want to break down. Another good write, I enjoyed it!

[Fredrick Malkyor]

This is my kind of poetry. I can imagine the building of aggresiveness where it starts at " I want to burst" to "sands of my life" and how I can imagine the quit voice saying "I may need to live later on in time". I will say that this is truely 'Inspiring'.


Your friend,


Fredrick Malkyor

[Iz]

BB honey you know me so very well. We can go for months and not talk, yet know the feelings that were felt. This made me cry honestly, that's how deeply I felt it. I swear you are getting better and reading my mind and heart. I love you so very much from the bottom of my heart.