Because Of You, I Grieve

You swept in so uninvited
Unexpected and disguised
You dug your claws into his brain
And stole his life before my eyes

You poisoned him so fast, so hard
He never even stood a chance
And now I'll never hear his laugh
Or get to see another dance

Because of you I struggle with
A loss too great for me to bear
And all that I have left of him
Are memories of times we shared

You never showed him any mercy
Just came and tore our lives apart
You stole a life before it even had
A chance to really start

I've cried more tears than I can count
Punched walls pretending they were you
I've screamed until my voice was gone
Cursed you for all that he went through

You took away a mother's son
You took away a dad's firstborn
You robbed two children of their brother
Left so many friends to mourn

And now because of what you've done
Because you came and wouldn't leave
There is a gaping hole in me
And you sit smiling as I grieve

Author's Note

I haven't been on here in a LONG time. Some of you knew my husband and I lost our 4 year old to brain cancer this past February. I've tried to keep writing in the beginning, but it didn't help so I stopped. Working on getting back into the swing of things. Thanks for reading. Comments, constructive criticism welcome. No change suggestions please.

Reviews

[Chantel]

An amazing, breathtaking, tragic poem. I am so sorry that this happened. You are an amazing writer though, it's good to see (read?) you back.

[Lexi Nicole]

Your heart is in this. I know I've said it before, but I have to say it again- I am so very sorry for your loss. Losing a child is a blow to the heart, the mind, and even the physical body. Your son is so very lucky to have you as his mother. I see in your writing that you will never, in all your days, forget about him. You will always love him and I promise you he will live on in your heart forever.

This poem is fantastic. I honestly can't find the right words to say about it. It is perfect. I can feel all your emotions spilled forth through it. This piece is literally perfect, there is nothing that you could possibly do to make it any better.

Your are a very strong person, Cattie. I admire you.

-Teagan