Because Of You, I Grieve

You swept in so uninvited
Unexpected and disguised
You dug your claws into his brain
And stole his life before my eyes

You poisoned him so fast, so hard
He never even stood a chance
And now I'll never hear his laugh
Or get to see another dance

Because of you I struggle with
A loss too great for me to bear
And all that I have left of him
Are memories of times we shared

You never showed him any mercy
Just came and tore our lives apart
You stole a life before it even had
A chance to really start

I've cried more tears than I can count
Punched walls pretending they were you
I've screamed until my voice was gone
Cursed you for all that he went through

You took away a mother's son
You took away a dad's firstborn
You robbed two children of their brother
Left so many friends to mourn

And now because of what you've done
Because you came and wouldn't leave
There is a gaping hole in me
And you sit smiling as I grieve

Author's Note

I haven't been on here in a LONG time. Some of you knew my husband and I lost our 4 year old to brain cancer this past February. I've tried to keep writing in the beginning, but it didn't help so I stopped. Working on getting back into the swing of things. Thanks for reading. Comments, constructive criticism welcome. No change suggestions please.

Reviews

[Shalini Dinesh (Poet's ..]

Very nice poem, sorry about your son, its a grt loss for parents and beloved ones, last year I lost my bestest friend due to blood cancer, till today I think of her each day, life should go on, you need to come back with life for your hubby and kids.take care......

[MissWordSmith]

"You stole a life before it even had
A chance to really start"

I'm crying as I read that. Angela, your son was lucky to have you and all the love you gave him while he was here... some people don't get that their entire lifetime. I'm so glad you're writing again!

[Allison]

:-( This was wonderful.
I'm so sorry that this happened to you. That's so terrible. If you ever need anything, let me know.

[Shante Payne]

I can feel the pain and anger dripping from your words, line by line one at a time. It's such a tragedy and I pray you keep your head up mama. You know I'm always here for you.

[Tina Kline]

Raw pain of loss, a loss so hard to endure. This is perfect the way you have written it.

[Coyote Poetry]

I lost two brothers 22 years ago. I remember their faces everyday of my life. Some pain is permanent. Any mother or father live with pain till death. I hope there is a place to find people we miss and need one day. I missed you. I got up after my brother's death for other people in my family. Sometime we must be strong for the people who need us. A sad and powerful poem.
Coyote

[Sam Severn]

I wouldn't change a word of this. It's heartbreaking, and it's beautiful.
XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

[Ruth]

Love..this is tear inducing...I am thinking of you and love and light to you xx

[SR Urie]

Good to see you Angela.

This poem is up with your usual superior prose. I would suggest you add a verse to let me know who specifically you are talking to that caused the loss; just a suggestion.

Take care. BZ

[SR Urie]

Good to see you Angela.

This poem is up with your usual superior prose. I would suggest you add a verse to let me know who specifically you are talking to that caused the loss; just a suggestion.

Take care. BZ