Flashback

Flashback

A Poem by Christine Anne Shaw

let the dead rest, but i can not
so blame it on a blackbird singing

melancholic choking on notes
sorrow sticks like a crumb in the throat

i bring you back selfishly
to quiet Sunday isolated living

before flipping us into the sixties
into our threadbare history

where we danced on wood flooring
parquet in the town Pavillion

newly varnished,sliding, spinning
till out of breath we collapsed

laughing out of control while ice
in our drinks melted with our hearts

for four seasons carrier of my dreams
until i squandered you thoughtlessly

i blew you away, puff you are gone
like parachute seeds on a dandelion head

there, there my love you must return
let me tuck you in your long cold coffin

sleep, sleep my love, age does not alter you
as it wearies me and hurts my thinking

© 2020 Christine Anne Shaw


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Those time travels of the mind can be all too real as the pain opens old wounds, but they too bring back those precious moments of joy shared and lived to the fullest Chris.
I know from experience how much of a daft sod you tell yourself you are, as you find tears and smiles mingling at what they truly meant to you.
Hopefully the warmth from the smiles they brought you linger longer.


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Christine Anne Shaw

2 Weeks Ago

Often a bitter sweet experience Lorry. Can have you smiling one minute and in tears the next. This y.. read more



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Such a sad write, dear Chris. It's one thing this isolation has been notable for; making us sit and think and cast our mind back to our past and not surprisingly all our buried memories and emotions come bubbling to the surface. You have some lovely description here, painting the scene for the reader and then sweeping the carpet from under their feet at its ending. Life is full of regrets sometimes and its the regrets that always linger like ghosts in the mind. I enjoyed this one very much. At the least you have the memories of the lovely moments to balance the dark with the light. Much enjoyed, as always! :))

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Christine Anne Shaw

5 Days Ago

Too much time on our hands at present. The mind starts to wander. Regrets yes, fir the way we parted.. read more
Loved the poem, really brought out the combinations of memory. Some good and some bad memories but all the same remembered. the ending was on point. :) pleasure reading your work.

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Christine Anne Shaw

1 Week Ago

Thank you Antonio for your very generous review. All good wishes.

Chris
Chris, this is breathtakingly aching and I felt this deep to my bones. To remember and miss and return to a time of happiness, reverse the pain and longing to hold onto a familiar feeling once more, I not only felt this but resonate deeply with it...astounding poetry, blessings to you...

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Christine Anne Shaw

1 Week Ago

A lovely review from you Ruth. Thank you for your generous comments.

Chris
You lock the memories in a box but you'll always hold the box and feel it's weight, for better or worse.
Solid write, Chris.

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Christine Anne Shaw

1 Week Ago

Thank you Ana. I appreciate your thoughts here.

Chris
Grief hovers over this one like a lingering dark cloud. The addressee is not named, but it appears to be one with whom the speaker was involved romantically long ago. Memories of the '60's well up, pleasant memories, but it ended after four years, apparently by the will of the speaker. There is regret here, seemingly an older but wiser feeling. Very imaginative imagery brings the pain home to the reader.

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Christine Anne Shaw

1 Week Ago

Thank you John for your thoughtful comments. You are appreciated.

Chris
Cannot describe how much I love each and every line of the piece. Even if someone dies, memories with them never die. It gives you a bittersweet feeling just like how this write gives me. It brought back so many memories making me smile and weep at the same time.
Age always wearies me and hurts my thinking. :'(

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Christine Anne Shaw

1 Week Ago

Dear moog-drika thank you so much for your lovely review. Much appreciated.

Chris
What a shame that some memories recall to us untold happiness. There are those that we wish we could hold on to forever. Then there is the reality of today - dreams are shattered and our fond memories are scattered to the four winds. Still, thankfully, we have those fond, glee filled recollections of the past, hopefully blanketing the sorrows of today. A powerful write here - Chris.
Take care - Dave

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Christine Anne Shaw

1 Week Ago

Thank you Dave for leaving your valued thoughts. Most appreciated.

Chris
I feel the main emotions in this poem are guilt and regret, though I think the present guilt of being selfish for bringing up the past is misplaced. The dead are past suffering, so any thoughts of doing wrong by them is self-defeating for no reason. The subjective memories are beautiful in imagery; I just wish they were more emotional, nostalgic, and the conclusion not as jaded. How did those dances make you feel? Was there a way they danced you remember? What of those 4 seasons? And what happened that you took them for granted and pushed them away? Things only get "threadbare" from lots of things happening to them. The only proper way to talk about death is to talk about the life that was. I know this must have been difficult for you to write about, and personal, but I feel you could go deeper; maybe not in detail, but just emotionally. I would love to hear more!

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Christine Anne Shaw

1 Week Ago

Many thanks for your review and suggestions Andrew. You are right about the feelings of guilt. I'm n.. read more
Great !! Ma'am .... This is very real ... As our old wounds unlock ... Same way they bring the sweet memories too ...

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Christine Anne Shaw

1 Week Ago

Your visit and thoughts are both welcome and appreciated Anushka. Thank you.

Chrisread more
This feels so lifelike to read, almost like the atmosphere of those beloved times with your partner were yesterday. I am 23, so I do not know what it was like then, but the sad way you bring life into this poem makes it almost clear. I've been reading Charles Bukowski. Your writing sounds like a kinder more elegant but similar tone to his.

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Christine Anne Shaw

1 Week Ago

Thank you Sinister for your visit and your thoughts. I found it interesting that you thought the ton.. read more

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Christine Anne Shaw

Berkshire, United Kingdom



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Have been at Writerscafe for a year now, so pleased I made the change to posting my work here. Have loved reading poetry all my life, but never wrote my first poem until I hit 40. I wish now that I.. more..

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