Polar Bear Pills

Polar Bear Pills

A Poem by alienated.aquarius
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prescription meds

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We were walking through the zoo

At six years old

Approaching the polar bears

Popping tic-tacs and smarties

Like they were pills

Didn’t know much about pills

Just that they killed pain

Never specified what kind.

 

Never thinking prescriptions

Would be a new normal

Getting fucked up on pills is fun,

Trying to choke down thirty-seven?

Not so much.

 

If you took the right ones,

You wouldn’t feel a damn thing

But at six years old,

You don’t anticipate needing to take something

To help you get out of bed

To help achieve chemical equilibrium

In your brain

Needing something to

Extract the emotional pain.

 

Switching meds is f*****g exhausting

It’s a lot of waiting,

Which in a way, is kind of like getting high,

More so the process than the pleasure.

It’s a lot of waiting

Do you feel anything yet?

Is it working?

When will it kick in?

When will it stop working?

Will I end up needing this forever?

 

It’s hard to tell if it has

Wrecked my writers’ brain

Or if I’ve learned to live

Without it,

But I’m more than trauma responses

And script refills.

But pills can’t fill emptiness.

I try not to find similarity in me

and how the polar bears, too, seem lonely.

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© 2019 alienated.aquarius


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I totally relate to this. I am not in favor of the way our society depends so heavily on prescription pills. As an older person myself, I get sick of the typical conversation with old friends who are obsessed with their ailments & treatments. That is all they have to think about, talk about, or look forward to in life, it seems. When I read a young person writing something like this (such honest & gut-level questioning!) it makes me wonder what life will be like when the drug-ensconced generations grow up to be old & a few dozen more prescriptions are piled on. Usually your msgs cut down to the bone of truth. To me, you're being too easy on the prescription-drug-craze in this poem. It doesn't cut down to the real dangers, if you ask me. Maybe you're too attached to your drugs or maybe the drugs ARE impacting your writing sharpness!?!?! (Just pondering, as you are in your poem. I don't believe this or not). Someday I will try to write on my experience with being totally loaded up with prescriptions & then weaning myself off everything & how much better I feel now (((HUGS))) Fondly, Margie

Posted 3 Months Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

alienated.aquarius

3 Months Ago

i wholeheartedly agree that prescriptions are much more lethal than the government lets on. I just w.. read more
barleygirl

3 Months Ago

It's a huge topic, things could ramble (which is why I haven't figured out how to approach writing a.. read more



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well done. sad story, keep up the good work. - cheyenne s garcia

Posted 2 Weeks Ago


It's sad how we've gotten to the point that we rely on pills and/or drugs to make it through our days. You painted this picture in an excellent way.

Posted 1 Month Ago


Always a pill for every occasion, but for a six year old it has to be the right pill.
Some pills people can't do without, severe mental health might be one of them.
Mental health in general can be tackled better just by talking to like-minded people.
Far reaching subject mind you.


Posted 3 Months Ago


I totally relate to this. I am not in favor of the way our society depends so heavily on prescription pills. As an older person myself, I get sick of the typical conversation with old friends who are obsessed with their ailments & treatments. That is all they have to think about, talk about, or look forward to in life, it seems. When I read a young person writing something like this (such honest & gut-level questioning!) it makes me wonder what life will be like when the drug-ensconced generations grow up to be old & a few dozen more prescriptions are piled on. Usually your msgs cut down to the bone of truth. To me, you're being too easy on the prescription-drug-craze in this poem. It doesn't cut down to the real dangers, if you ask me. Maybe you're too attached to your drugs or maybe the drugs ARE impacting your writing sharpness!?!?! (Just pondering, as you are in your poem. I don't believe this or not). Someday I will try to write on my experience with being totally loaded up with prescriptions & then weaning myself off everything & how much better I feel now (((HUGS))) Fondly, Margie

Posted 3 Months Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

alienated.aquarius

3 Months Ago

i wholeheartedly agree that prescriptions are much more lethal than the government lets on. I just w.. read more
barleygirl

3 Months Ago

It's a huge topic, things could ramble (which is why I haven't figured out how to approach writing a.. read more
lol,you should take a look at my list of drugs,i think about 26 bottles,and about 23 a day

Posted 3 Months Ago


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Vin
The curiosity of a 6 year old is well explained! Crazy times,huh!

Posted 3 Months Ago



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Added on October 10, 2019
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Tags: poetry, poem, poet, depression, mental health, mental illness, anxiety, suicide, self harm, self care, self love, medication, drugs

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alienated.aquarius
alienated.aquarius

Buffalo, NY



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Hi! I'm Catie. i write things (poems, fiction, blogs/articles) and try to publish them. i love chasing waterfalls and sunsets. i was born at a very young age. i can pick things up with my toes. i'm ob.. more..

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